Show Me the Stars - Jennifer Jareau x Reader

seventy-one | kicking and fighting

Eating cookie dough ice cream together at the counter, you and JJ enjoyed each other's company as you stood beside one another. She gave you a kiss on the temple. "Was that good for you?"

"Mhm." You swallowed a mouthful of ice cream. "It was so nice. I really love you. Thank you for being patient..."

"Hey..." She could tell your emotions were starting to get the better of you, so she rubbed your back. "Y/N, I love you so much. I would wait as long as you want to. I'm really glad we could do this." Her sweetness and warmth finally broke you, and a couple tears fell. JJ noticed and took the last couple bites of ice cream in haste before turning to hug you. "I hope these aren't bad tears." You shook your head and hummed in the negative. "Okay, good. Wanna talk or no?" You shook your head again. "That's fine. Are you done with your ice cream?"

You sniffled and turned around. "Yeah." You rinsed the bowl thoroughly, put it in the dishwasher, and dried your hands. "Let's go back up to bed."

JJ kissed you in bed and rubbed your back again. "Okay. I love you, sweet girl. I hope you aren't upset. Please tell me if I can help you feel better or anything,"

"No, no, I'm not upset. Really, not at all. I'm happy about everything we did, but my feelings are just...overwhelming me right now. I'm really happy, Jen. I loved all of it. You're so sweet."

She smiled and rested her forehead against yours. "That's really good to hear." She kissed you. "You're so pretty,"

"Not bad yourself," you chuckled. This time you initiated the kiss before saying, "You're gorgeous, my sweet Jennifer. I love you,"

"I love you, angel. Let's get to sleep,"

"Alright. Good night,"

"Night."

You awoke to JJ wrapped around you tighter than you'd felt her in a long time. Before your brain processed that you weren't in any danger, you started to thrash and fight her for just a moment. As soon as you realized who was holding you, you attempted to grab the sheets and took a deep breath, frozen with guilt and residual fear. "I'm sorry," you breathed. Your shaking hand reached up to hold her face. "I'm so sorry, baby." She grabbed your wrist and held your hand to her cheek.

"It's okay. It's okay,"

"I'm sorry..."

"Shh, it's alright. I'm fine." She stroked the front piece of your hair and leaned in to kiss your forehead. "Bad dream or something?"

"I don't remember. Maybe. Sometimes when I wake up and I can't see you, I forget it's you I'm in bed with. My body was so used to waking up scared for a long time. I'm really sorry. Did I hurt you at all?"

"No. I'm totally fine, my love. You've apologized more than you ever needed to. Take a beat." She kissed your forehead again. You closed your eyes and savored her touch for a minute. "I love you, angel."

You whispered back, "I love you, Jenny."

She pulled the blankets up and continued playing with your hair. You moved up to more comfortably kiss her. JJ wrapped her arm around you and asked against your lips, "How does this feel?" She always wanted to touch you in a way that would make you feel safe and loved; it felt especially important to her when you were so sensitive.

"Good," you told her. "Can we cuddle for a bit?"

"Of course. Come here." JJ wrapped her loving arms around you and rubbed your back as you laid your head on her chest. "Good?" she asked once you were situated. You nodded. She kissed your head and sighed, "Good." The adrenaline in your body dissipated as JJ held you gently and allowed you to relax. The kisses she placed on your head affirmed how deeply she loved you. You laid there until Amelia started crying, and you told JJ you would get her. When you returned with your baby, your wife smiled. She gave you a kiss on the cheek once you sat in bed beside her. "How're you, my love?" she asked Amelia. "You sleep good?"

You handed Amelia over to JJ, who kissed her little head and helped her sit up on the bed. Amelia giggled as her mommy bounced her around. You could not stop grinning, except to give JJ a kiss on the cheek. She glanced over at you with a smile of her own before playing with Amelia again. She sat up, held Amelia under the arms and helped her jump on the bed. Your baby babbled and laughed herself silly.

Just as JJ brought Amelia back into her arms, Henry trudged in, rubbing his eyes and dragging his blanket behind him. He started towards JJ's side of the bed, but her hands were full with Amelia, so you told him, "Come over to my side, bub,"

"Go see Mama," said JJ. He climbed up, with your help, and snuggled right up with you.

"Hi, Mama," he mumbled. When you kissed his head he said, "I love you." You and JJ looked at each other with wide grins.

"I love you too, buddy. Did you sleep okay?"

"Uh-huh." You gave him a squeeze and more kisses. "Mama, can I sleep a little bit more in here with you?"

"Sure. We can snuggle up under the covers. I'll go back to sleep, too." You glanced at JJ and Amelia before pulling the blankets up and giving Henry a hug and kiss. He fell asleep within a minute, despite his sister's babbling. JJ tapped your shoulder and gave you a smile.

"He's out?" she whispered. You nodded a little. She rubbed your shoulder and said, "Get some rest yourself. I've got Amelia,"

"Alright. I love you,"

"I love you too. I'm gonna go give her a bottle. I'll see you in a little while." She leaned down to kiss your head, and she left you and your son alone.