My Diary

How-Am-I?

Any of you had to let go of a friendship? If so how did you cope with it? 

The journal entries reflect a person's emotional struggles and experiences in relationships, school, and personal growth. They express feelings of loneliness, frustration, and confusion, while coping with significant changes in their friendships and romantic relationships. The writer is dealing with the loss of friends and a breakup, feeling misunderstood by teachers and peers, and grappling with the pressure of academic and social expectations.

Amid the emotional turmoil, they find solace in writing, sharing their innermost thoughts, and reflecting on the support they received from a few trusted individuals. The entries also highlight their attempt to navigate complex relationships—particularly with two romantic interests, Nic and Max—while longing for understanding and connection. In school, the writer struggles with assignments, classroom dynamics, and their teachers' perceived unfair treatment, leading to feelings of isolation and frustration.

The person copes by venting through writing and expressing their emotions openly, recognizing the growth and changes in themselves and others. They are learning to understand the challenges of relationships and personal responsibilities, while also facing feelings of abandonment and anger.

3-7-2022

Today I am feeling lonely because I don't know what to do or who to talk to. I just want Mom to stop controlling me. I just want to get out of here and be free. I want to go to live with a friend and try new things. I love everyone that I know but I don't feel right. Like I feel like I am being ignored. 

Anyway, I am so glad that Science of Food is ending on Friday!! But I will be taking Human Dev/Psych. I'm nervous but my guidance counselor told me that it's just like TOTS (Early Childhood) . I will have English, Guitar, Internship, and some other. But I won't have Creative Writing anymore. But I will have other stuff. don't like my English class because Mrs. Pyrch yelled at me today because Mrs. Eskew didn't do anything while we were working.

3-10-2022

I will always be honest with you. I will have moods, I will lash out, but that's the true thing about writing. If you were in my position, then you would want to get away as well.  

And next October 20th I'll be in my 20's.

Anyway, my guitar Mr. Maino, as in an understanding teacher. He accepts all kinds of levels of difficulties. 

In guitar we do something called SHRMG 

What SHRMG are:  SHRMGS meaning that he or anyone for that matter will put on a random song or even a recording, we have to put 

S

H

R

M

G

S for Sound, H is for Harmony, M for Melody, R is for Rhythm, and G is for Growth, Like we did Rocking Robin and we had to describe with those. I have somewhat trouble, but I like what he plays like: bad blood by Joy O, something (I remember that) 

My last boyfriend we have been through a lot. Him with his broken left leg and him talking about himself. I mean I DO talk about myself, but I should've known. It wasn't right. He was in pain, and I shouldn't have gotten mad, I should've been there and gave him hope not to yell at his pain. We are learning. I love him deeply he really changed but me...I haven't. I don't think I did. He pushed me and helped me. But I just yelled at him.