My Diary

How-Am-I?

Any of you had to let go of a friendship? If so how did you cope with it? 

The journal entries reflect a person's emotional struggles and experiences in relationships, school, and personal growth. They express feelings of loneliness, frustration, and confusion, while coping with significant changes in their friendships and romantic relationships. The writer is dealing with the loss of friends and a breakup, feeling misunderstood by teachers and peers, and grappling with the pressure of academic and social expectations.

Amid the emotional turmoil, they find solace in writing, sharing their innermost thoughts, and reflecting on the support they received from a few trusted individuals. The entries also highlight their attempt to navigate complex relationships—particularly with two romantic interests, Nic and Max—while longing for understanding and connection. In school, the writer struggles with assignments, classroom dynamics, and their teachers' perceived unfair treatment, leading to feelings of isolation and frustration.

The person copes by venting through writing and expressing their emotions openly, recognizing the growth and changes in themselves and others. They are learning to understand the challenges of relationships and personal responsibilities, while also facing feelings of abandonment and anger.

3-7-2022

Today I am feeling lonely because I don't know what to do or who to talk to.I just want Mom to stop controlling me. I just want to get out of here and be free. I want to go to live witha friend and try new things. I love everyone that I know but I don't feel right. Like I feel like I am being ignored. 

Anyway, I am so glad that Science of Food is ending on Friday!! But I will be taking Human Dev/Psych. I'm nervous but my guidance counselor told me that it's just like TOTS (Early Childhood) Megan is in my Guitar class and I have seen before in my 4 years here that you get a baby flour doll so you can understand what it's like to be a Mom but luckily for me I am a Mom of 3. Mooney, Piper and Lola and sort of Willow the step kid. I can't wait also but I just checked my Infinite Campus for what I have and what is going to be different for quarter 3 and 4. I will have English, Guitar, Internship, and some other. But I won't have Creative Writing anymore. But I will have other stuff. don't like my English class because Mrs. Pyrch yelled at me today because Mrs. Eskew didn't do anything while we were working.

3-8-2022-New Update 

I have been focusing on just trying to get out of this town. I have met the most wonderful, exciting, sexy, dangerous, tall, hot boy named Nic. And Jesus Christ he's hot. I want to be with him and I chose him for my life BUT there's Max. He just started to change and opened up. Ever since he broke his leg. I have been waiting for him to realize his wrongs and his behavior. I just don't feel the "I feel him in school anymore" but I think about Nic all the time. I even picture myself visiting him. I am soo happy that I met a new friend. Her name is Chrstina. She is wonderful. She gets me. She is a friend that I realy really need again since Julia. I really don't want to lose her. I already lost my class, Julia, Stephine, and my brothers. So I have lost soo much. I am hurting. I don't know what to do. I feel lonely. That's why I write or type if I don't have my tablet or anything electronic. I love to share my thoughts and feelings. That's why I write but also I write short stories.

3-10-2022

I can't believe Mrs. Ross/Mrs. Rabin is pregnant. Who knows. I hate speeches in Mrs. Pyrch's class. Like I don't know how I would even try and do my best with "Writing or editing" Like what if I mess up? Like what if I miss something? But my most vulnerable is crying. Oh god, I get so nervous that I start to cry. But I'll try and think about Max or see him in my seat. So I can focus. I really really want to drop this class. I know that I need to know speeches and writing essays but I'm here for one more year. It doesn't matter.And I know that I say that so much but It's true. You may get tired of me repeating it but too bad. Then don't follow me then except to read my short stories but you can just ignore "My Diary" but I'm letting you readers know so much about me that you guys are like close friends.