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Weird shit on Discord from people

William7904 — Today at 12:38 AM

i wonder what else your search history is hiding lol

Somehow I don't have any emo friends btw. I think its because I just don't look emo even remotely

in high school I think I would piss off the emo crowd by being too religious

𝕞𝕠𝕞𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕦𝕞 — Today at 5:42 PM

Are you slavic perchance?

its_me — Today at 7:14 PM

Hi, do you want to insult each other for fun?

TeslaTactix — Today at 6:20 PM

Could I perhaps be your personal sub/ sl a ve that does every sexual thing you ask him to do? Even if it's humiliating embarrassing or painful tasks I'll do it still like your personal simp that does everything for you

Meuyu — Today at 1:58 AM

From what I have gathered, wattpad readers are true geniuses, freaks and borderline demonic

Would you agree?😂

AdamK — Today at 6:15 PM

you ever get high?

"Night work is very harmful to female."

AmerigoX — Today at 8:47 PM

Hey, my name is sebastian, do you mind if I was to borrow your time?

Magic — Today at 8:53 PM

Sure.

AmerigoX — Today at 8:54 PM

Thank you, because I'm genuinely stressing out right now over this kind girl at work that I have a giant crush on and I really need someone to talk to, specifically a lady to help me perceive what a woman is thinking. Now I know that all women aren't the same, but I just need some help with perception

Magic — Today at 8:57 PM

You could go to a venting server

But I'll try

AmerigoX — Today at 8:57 PM

Really, you would, because I seriously appreciate it

Magic — Today at 8:57 PM

give me every detail

AmerigoX — Today at 8:57 PM

The reason I ask you is because you're a bit older, correct?

And my crush is a bit older than me (I'm 18) and I think she's like 19-20

AmerigoX — Today at 8:58 PM

Yes, ill begin with the first day I met her

Well first, allow me to describe her: She always smells nice and she has such pretty, black, wavy hair like the ocean at midnight. She has immaculate style, and is very funny, but in a stupid way if that makes sense

So, first off, I work at this box factory. Nearby this factory are 2 buildings, because our product sells so well, we sometimes transfer between buildings

Now, I didn't see her as a "love a first sight", I was kinda like "damn, she's pretty" and thats all, nothing more

The shift ran smooth except towards the end of the day

I asked her for more labels for our shipper boxes. Her response: in a kind tone "I was gonna say no, but I don't know you that well!" This told me 3 things about her: 1: she's considerate. 2: she overthinks. 3: she likes sarcastic humor. All 3 things that I consist of

And admire

At the end of the day, as I drive home, I clearly remember saying to myself (alone in my car, outloud to myself): "I'm in love with her." But kinda as a joke. But now I really mean it

Anyways, a few weeks later (the same month of February), im sent to building 1 once again. There, I see her again. This time, however, she's wearing a mask (which is a common thing to wear in our company because of the product and all), but they seriously enunciate her large brown eyes. They are the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen and still are

We encountered then once again for a third time, but this time, she got sent to my building: building 2. And more and more I began to develop this sense of nervousness whenever she was around, and I had no idea why, almost like I was pretending not to love her

AmerigoX — Today at 9:05 PM

I remember one time in particular when she almost tripped upon a piece of wood that was beside the door she entered right in front of me. I wanted to laugh at her so badly because she's so cute, but I held it in to respect her feelings. And for the rest of that shift, while she wasn't looking, I'd sweep the floor at the foot of that door everytime before she'd enter, because she's clumsy

I love her clumsiness because it makes her seem relatable

Well, fast forwarding a few months later (april), she's now supervising my building and she has been at my building ever since then

I've also noted a few things about her

1: she clocks out at 3:30 and I don't leave until 4:30, which is why I can't talk to her at the end of her shift

2: she is constantly running around the work floor, keeping everything in check. Its mesmerizing how independent and smart she is. Like, what does she need a man for haha

3: she wears this specific perfume, i don't know what it is, but I've subconsciously called it heaven's Nectar. Everything I think of her, I think of the smell of that perfume. And nearly every time she's around, I can smell her presence, which immediately makes me nervous

4: hell, I even know the kind of car she drives. And the same day I found that out, I also found out how to change a tire, the oil, oil filter, and air filter of that car (Jujus car)

5: she does indeed like sarcastic humor, I've had very few conversations with her before.

But something g different has been happening

One is our style. When I wear all black, the next day she wears all black. When I wear baggy clothes, the next day, she wears baggy clothes. This one, I could be wrong tho

Another thing, I've started wearing glasses to match her style, something I knew she was insecure about (her glasses). Now, all of a sudden, she wears her glasses every day, and I believe its because of me, and I take pride in that

I just see so much of myself in her and I think that's why I like her.

I've gotten so obsessed that I wrote a journal consisting of 60 pages of poems and drawing of juju

Do you think she likes me?

How can I confess to her?