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12: Secret

Reading it over and over again, my eyes almost pop out my eyes sockets doing it for how many times now.

What?!

"WHAT!!!!"

Now, i can't help but shout.

What can i say? I'm really shocked and shaken by this revelation!! How can i not react like this!!

Mal!! Malaysia is!!

No, no, no! Ella! We don't have solid proof! Don't jump in any conclusion just yet!

Now, breath in, breath out.

That's good, Ella, just breath. Calm down. Or else we might die in shock here. It can kill people.

While breathing calmly, I obviously closed my eyes. Now, I started to peek inside the same diary again.

The same neath writing, the same page, the same contents.

So its true! It's still true!! Why?! WHY!!

Ella! Calm down, calm down. We don't want to die. We need to see mama, so please do not be shocked! We will die at this rate! Philip will die again! (Its not like he's really death but still!)

Okay! For my bias, I will not be surprise again!

So checking again the content, its really shocking. To think some secrets I don't know is happening at the back. I mean I am not the author and its possible that I am not in the same story i once read before. So, things might change but. This content in Philip's diary might be the key...

You know what, I'm more shocked to the content that Philip like someone as a girl! To think something like that happened!

But... Thinking about it, Philip is the most pretties male lead so it's possible, and a lot actually prefer him to be female, especially in her world. But then again, she is dressed as male, since birth! So how am I supposed to figure out all this things now! If not for Philip's diary, I will be clueless for a lot of things! Well, forget about it, I need to figure things out.

I need a pen and a paper to sort this out... And, since I invade her privacy, I need to write. But... Now, this is her diary and I am Philip right now. So, I think i have a right to write, right? I'm not sure but i will do it nonetheless, I want to let Philip know about me like how i could know him in her diary.

Thinking about this, it made me relief. At least, I can leave some traces after I left, if I ever successfully leave this world... Or not. At least, when Philip come back, she will not freak out that much after knowing time passed without her and someone occupied her body doing things. Now that I think about it, I wish I will not cause her trouble. I'm trying not to cause any trouble but who knows, something might happen.

Okay then, I should sort about Mal first before Philip, then mine.

And so, I work til late night. By the time I left my room, its already close mid night. As i walk the hallways down to find food since I'm hungry, I could see how large and... Silent the place.

Every time my shoes move, the clacking echoes. I hug myself due to how cold this place is, rubbing it to produce some heat.

I walk far until I reach the kitchen. I sometimes sneak here when I'm hungry. I found the kitchen once when I tour the place... But mostly because I want to see the mansion's structures and which room is which.

I open a gap slightly, a peek to see for any presence. Good things no one is there. I bought food I want then return to my room.

As I walk to the hallways in front of the windows, I could see a carriage from afar the gates. Looking at it, it enters as the gate opens.

What? Why's that?

Do we have a guest this late at night?

Curious, I waited.

I sat down to hide. As i do, I also ate my snacks.

When the carriage reach the estate's door, the Count went out to great these late night visitor.

Its seems like they knew they will be coming. But why didn't they informed me? Or the others?

I could see that only Philip's dad welcomes the guess. Normally, based on my etiquette lesson, the servants are required to welcome any visitors. Except, for some occasions... Like this one. Emergency?

Wow, this visitor is such a drag. Why is it taking so long?

Thanks to my complain, the guy in the carriage finally decided to come out his carriage.

Ohh...

That pattern, those colors, that imposing attitude. Its' Philip's brother... It's Martial.

Didn't they say he will be coming back next week?

Hmm...

Chomp...

Hmm, these cookies are really delicious. Taking another bite, I look to watch again but...

Uwaa!!

He saw me!

Ha!

The hell was that!?

I even dropped my cookies!

Need to leave, need to leave!

As I ran to my room, without forgetting to bring my food, I dare not to look back.

Why am I acting like this though???

Its not like I commit a crime!

So why am I running??

Forget it! Just go, go, go!

Let's hide in the room for now.

But maybe because they don't want me to know he's coming back noh?

I mean, based on Philip's diary...

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As she run the hallway, her clear figure could clearly see. With a lamp and something in her hands, she runs.

From the direction where she's going, the spectator already concluded the answer.

As Martial saw his sibling doing something, he brush it off paying attention to his father.

He followed him inside, then the door closes.

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They don't have a good relationship.

[...we don't get along.]