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*once you've calmed down a bit more you and Nat both go back to bed Yelena is still awake you can tell she wants to talk to you but you don't you lay with your back to her so she can't communicate with you you feel bad shutting her out but you're trying to control the dark spiralling thoughts in your mind you lay there for a while letting the darkness consume you after about half an hour you turn over and see Yelena is asleep again you get up and silently creep through the house to the kitchen you get a sharp knife and hide it before going back to your room you go into your bathroom and lock the door you sit on the edge of the bath and pull your trousers down you press the cold blade of the knife into your skin and drag it you don't wince in pain you feel comforted by the familiar stinging pain you keep doing it until both of your thighs are covered again it numbs your pain and calms you down when the numbness passes the regret sets in you think about hoe much of a failure you are you know Nat will want to get rid of you if she finds out you clean yourself up and hide the knife before going back to bed you fall asleep almost instantly you wake up a couple of hours later you check the time and see that it's 6:30 you put your hearing aids on as you stand you're hit with a strong wave of dizziness you have to hold onto the bed post until it passes you change into your work out stuff and go out to meet Nat an Clint*
*he signs as he speaks*
Clint: woah you don't look so good Y/n are you okay?
*Nat worriedly turns her attention straight to you you give them both a fake smile*
Y/n: yeah I'm good I just had a rough night
Nat: Clint's right detka maybe you should skip the run this morning and get some more rest
*you shake your head*
Y/n: I'll be fine I need the exercise are you two ready?
*before they have a chance to respond you grab a bottle of water off the kitchen worktop and go outside they follow you*
Clint: just take it easy okay?
*you pretend you didn't hear him and run away from them they follow far behind after about 20 minutes your pace slows and your vision starts to blur as the dizziness takes over you ignore it and try to run through it you stumble and stop you look back but can't see Nat and Clint you've ran too far ahead your vision fades to black as you collapse to the ground*
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Natasha Romanoff's lost daughter
Actionwhen 16 year old Natasha gets pregnant during a mission for the red room and Dreykov takes the baby and Natasha is made to believe that the baby is dead years later the avengers find a widow what happens when Nat finds out she is her daughter.
