You Make Me Wanna Die (Louis Tomlinson Fan Fiction)

Month 3

WARNING: TRIGGER WARNING

I turned on the TV and put on the gossip channel, because why not.

"Hey hey bitch" Shane jumped on the couch. Shane, Rose and Corey moved in last week. We got designers in and everything. Their bedrooms are in the 3 small rooms in the basement. The music room and gym are fully equipped as are a brand new art room and things like that.

"Hey hoe" I giggled and turned up the volume.

"One direction's Louis Tomlinson was caught making out with an unidentified girl in the alley behind a bar in france last night, we don't know if Louis and girlfriend Mila are still dating but we know for sure this girl isn't Mila as London's sweetheart was at an orphanage doing charity work yesterday" I started to cry.

"Mila" Shane sighed and pulled my into a hug.

"Why would he do that" I whaled.

"Don't worry about it hunny" He kissed my forehead and I took out my phone and went on twitter to see Louis had tweeted while drunk last night. There were many spelling errors but fans had decoded it and tweeted it to me with their 'sorry's'

@LouisTomlinson

Replacing people is part of life, some aren't worthy of being a part of it #aimed.

@LouisTomlinson

I didn't need her anyway #replaced

I knew he was drunk but it hurt. I cried harder and ran to me room and locked the door, without thinking I ran into my ensuite bathroom, pulled out a razor blade and slit many cuts all up my right and left arms and before I knew it. Darkness.

BEEP.BEEP.BEEP.

Is that a heart monitor? I opened my eyes and let the light flood them. Im in a hospital, its dark. It must be night time. I looked right to see shane asleep next to an asleep Corey and my dad asleep on the other side of my bed side. Suddenly a door opened and rose came in with coffee.

"Babe, your awake!" She squealed and pressed the nurse buzzer. In came a male nurse and she just checked my blood bag and vitals.

"Leanne and El were in yesterday, so was your mother, very.......yeah im sorry she's a bitch whereas this man, your dad has not left your side." Rose sat down and we talked. I was released later on in the afternoon and Logan was at the front of the hospital in the waiting room. My dad had to go back to work up in cheshire but said his goodbyes first. I noticed that I only had a t-shirt and there was scars all up my arm so I did my best to cover them I walked outside and told Rose, Shane and Corey to go ahead. I looked around to see fans holding up signs saying things like 'get well soon' and 'we love you'.

"Logan, how long have I been in there?" I asked.

"Week, in critical condition the first 3 days and made a slow recovery, you almost bled out" Logan sighed. I was shocked.

"You know this fandom treats you like part of one direction" Logan chuckled.

"And Im ever so greatful for that" I grinned.

"Go ahead, pumpkin. I'll be at the car" Logan walked away and I started signing things, taking photos with fans and paps and answered a couple of paps questions.

LOUIS' POV (The night of the cutting accident)

The boys hadn't exactly forgiven me but are putting it to past. I have tried calling Mila but she wont pick up.

"Hey hey hey this is mila leave a message" Spoke my phone.

"Dude that's the 100th time you've called her, give it a rest. Call her tomorrow" Niall sighed.

DING.

"Liam that's your phone" I shouted. Liam walked through and read his text aloud.

"Management says we are in big trouble put the gossip channels on" All the lads were already gathered around the TV so we changed the channel.

"Mila Tyler, 18 year old, London sweetheart known for being in a relationship with Louis Tomlinson has been taken to hospital, an ambulance has been spotted leaving the lane she lives down and paps have spotted her being taken into A&E. She is said to be in critical condition on counts of attempted suicide and self harm. Sources say she is no stranger to the deadly habit and has been trying to recover, we have reason to believe this is because of Louis Tomlinson recent affair and drunken tweets. We wish our sweetheart the best and a full recovery"

All of the boys had their go at me while I cried.

Zayn was in denial.

Harry hasn't spoken and is staring blankly at a wall.

Liam is in his bedroom and wont come out .

Niall was punching walls and screaming and crying, I have never seen him like this before, its horrible.

~~~~~8 DAYS LATER~~~~~

"ZAYN PUT THE GOSSIP CHANNELS ON" I shouted and went through to the living room and sat down next to the boys. Niall was shaken up but after hearing about Mila reportedly making a recovery all the boys have calmed down.

"London's sweetheart was seen late last night exiting hospital and seemed very fragile. Scars were spotted and it has been confirmed that she was in hospital on counts of self harm and attempted suicide. Besides being Ill and quite fragile, Ms.Tyler still gave her time to greeting fans and talking to paps. Isnt she great? We wish you the best, Mila"

"Thanks the heavens!" I screamed.

"Attempted suicide" Niall whispered.

"She's okay nialler" Liam patted Nialls back. All of a sudden someone came into the living room, part of management.

"You boys are lucky that Mila is a great sport, If I were her I would leave but she is playing the game like a champ, you need to appreciate her. Her head is in a bad place, she is still going she is a fighter" Management member kept going on and by the end we were all in tears.

I have legit fucked up.