You Make Me Wanna Die (Louis Tomlinson Fan Fiction)

Month 4

"1 MILLION SUBS!" I shouted into the camera.

"In honour of our 1 million sub achievement we have made a decision" Rose looked at shane for him to continue.

"NO MORE COVERS OF SONGS!" He said in a happy tone.

"We are going to write our own songs" I smiled.

"YAY!" Corey smiled.

"So, our main writer Miss Mimoo Tyler has written a song" Corey messed up my hair and kissed my cheek and I laughed.

"Hope you like it" I smiled and the music began.

She lives in the shadow of a lonely girl

Voice so quiet you don't hear a word

Always talking but she can't be heard

You can see there if you catch her eye

I know she's brave but it's trapped inside

Scared to talk but she don't know why

Wish I knew back then

What I know now.

Wish I could somehow

Go back in time and maybe listen to my own advice.

I'd tell her to speak up, tell her to shout out

Talk a bit louder, be a bit prouder

Tell her she's beautiful, wonderful

Everything she doesn't see

You gotta speak up, you gotta shout out

And know that right here, right now

You can be beautiful, wonderful

Anything you wanna be

Little me

Yeah you got a lot of time to act your age

You can't write a book from a single page

Hands on the clock only turn one way

Run too fast and you'll risk it all

Can't be afraid to take a fall

Felt so big but she looks so small

Wish I knew back then

What I know now.

Wish I could somehow

Go back in time and maybe listen to my own advice.

I'd tell her to speak up

Tell her to shout out

Talk a bit louder

Be a bit prouder

Tell her she's beautiful, wonderful

Everything she doesn't see.

(Know that right here, right now) You gotta speak up

You gotta shout out

And know that right here, right now

You can be beautiful, wonderful

Anything you wanna be, oh

Little me

Little me, yeah

Tell you one thing

I would say to her

I'd tell her to speak up, tell her to shout out

Talk a bit louder, be a bit prouder

Tell her she's beautiful, wonderful

Everything she doesn't see.

you gotta speak up,

You gotta shout out

And know that right here, right now

You can be beautiful, wonderful

Anything you wanna be

Little me

I'd tell her to speak up

Tell her to shout out

Talk a bit louder

Be a bit prouder

Tell her she's beautiful, wonderful

Everything she doesn't see.

You gotta speak up

You gotta shout out

And know that right here, right now

You can be beautiful, wonderful

Anything you wanna be

I'd tell her to speak up

Tell her to shout out

Talk a bit louder

Be a bit prouder

Tell her she's beautiful, wonderful

Everything she doesn't see.

You gotta speak up

You gotta shout out

And know that right here, right now

You can be beautiful, wonderful

Anything you wanna be

Little me

"Bye guys" I blew kiss and winked and Rose turned off the camera with a remote.

"5 HOURS!" I screamed, grabbed shanes arm and ran out to the back garden. He chuckled and passed me a ciggy. Yes I started smoking, I need to relieve stress so shut up. I don't smoke in public though because...well its obvious..Im apparently a role model so I cant in public. I perched it between my lips and lit it, I took a long drag, sighing in pleasure.

Shane laughed and lit his own, as it was November we were under a little roof. I guess your wondering what my position with the boys was. I have texted Zayn once or twice. Harry twice or so. Liam twice or so and Niall about a dozen times.

I sat in the freezing rain just smoking and talking to Shane for 3 or 4 hours. We walked back in and took a mint, we hate ciggy breath.

I saw a goblin sitiing on my couch.

"I was in the garden for 3 to 4 hours and you dyed your hair green" I sighed sitting down.

"Shut up I like it" She stuck out her tongue.

"Fine" I giggled.

"I have candyfloss dye left" She sang, I was REALLY tempted.

"DYE ME, SHREK" I laughed and ran to the bathroom. The hair was a success and I fucking loved it.

Ah its just all coming up Mila. The sun is coming out.