Whispers Of Yesterday

Chapter 52

"Some days, I feel like I'm drowning in uncertainty, but I'm slowly learning to swim through the waves of healing."

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Hey Kieran,

It's been a while since my last message, and so much has happened since then. I hope you and Sofia are doing well. There's something important I want to share with you, something that's been on my mind and in my heart.

Liam and I have been spending more time together. He's been incredibly understanding and patient with me, especially after I opened up to him about us. When I told him everything, I expected him to pull away or feel burdened by my past. Instead, he surprised me with his kindness and his words: "I'll wait for you."

Those words, Kieran, brought me comfort, that I hadn't felt in a long time. They reassured me that it was okay to take my time, to heal at my own pace. They reminded me that even though I was still hurting, there was hope for a future where I could feel whole again.

Liam has this way of saying things that make me feel seen and valued. His words, "Maeve, you're one of the strongest people I know. You've been through so much, and yet you keep moving forward. That kind of resilience is rare and beautiful.", made me feel good about myself in a way I haven't in a long time. It made me believe that maybe I'm not as broken as I thought.

As we'll be starting our spring break, yesterday, Liam asked me to go out with him. He suggested a small getaway—a chance to breathe, to escape from everything that's been weighing me down. At first, I was hesitant. The thought of stepping into something new, of allowing myself to be vulnerable again, scared me.

But then I thought about his words, his patience, and his unwavering support. I realized that maybe, just maybe, a change of scenery and a chance to enjoy myself could be the fresh air I desperately needed. So, after thinking over it for a while, I agreed.

We’re planning to go to a nearby town during our spring break maybe in between 15th to 20th of March, somewhere quiet and peaceful. It's not a grand adventure, but it feels like a significant step for me. I can't deny that part of me is still tangled up in the past, still hurting from everything that happened between us. But another part of me feels ready—ready to start letting go and embracing whatever comes next.

As I write this, I can't help but think about the first time you and I planned a trip together. The excitement, the anticipation, and the endless possibilities we saw in front of us. It’s bittersweet to remember those moments, but I also recognize that they are a part of who I am now.

I want you to know that I'm trying, Kieran. I'm trying to move on, to find happiness again, and to let the past be just that—the past. It's not easy, and there are days when the memories still hurt, when seeing you with Sofia still stings. But I’m starting to believe that it's possible to heal and to find joy in new beginnings.

Liam has been a rock for me, and his support is helping me see that there is life beyond the pain. He's shown me that it's okay to feel, to grieve, and to eventually move forward. I think I'm ready to take that step, to give myself a chance to be happy again.

One thing Liam said that really stuck with me was, "Maeve, you're deserving of happiness and love. Don't ever think you have to settle for less than you deserve." Those words gave me a sense of confidence I thought I had lost forever. They reminded me that my worth isn’t diminished by my past.

I don’t know what the future holds, and I’m sure there will be moments when I still feel the ache of what we lost. But for now, I'm focusing on the present and the small steps toward healing. This getaway with Liam feels like a step in the right direction, a step toward reclaiming my happiness.

I'm finding my way forward. And maybe, in doing so, I can finally find peace.

Take care, Kieran.

Maeve

Sent : 12.02.2023
           7:29 p.m.