Ich Liebe Dich, Lena ~ pt 3

☆ Nine ☆

"is it bad that I just all of a sudden feel like shit..." I said

"No, it's not bad. Why are you feeling like shit?" He said.

"I just don't know why I keep feeling like I wanna cry for no reason" I said. He nuzzled my neck and kissed my cheek but didn't say anything. "I'm annoying you now, aren't I?"

"Never, my love. You're not annoying. You're hurting and that's perfectly normal. Let it all out, okay?"

"I don't know what's wrong with me... one minute I can be happy and the next minute I'm depressed..."

"It's okay to feel that way"

"is it though? because I constantly feel like I'm dumping my problems onto you"

"Yes, because you're my wife and I want to be there for you. I want to help you through this. And besides, talking to each other is how we work through our problems. You're never dumping anything on me, Lena"

"but you don't deserve to be bombarded with my problems"

"Oh, but I do, Lena. Our problems are ours to share, and I want to be there for you. I love you, and that means carrying some of the weight when you're feeling down. So talk to me, my love. Tell me what's on your mind."

"I don't know... I just feel like crying for no reason... probably because my skin is still itching like crazy"

"It's okay to cry, Lena. Just let it all out. I'm here for you"

"but it's not okay to cry when there's nothing to cry about"

"Well, sometimes our bodies react in strange ways when we're going through tough times. Crying can be a release, a way to let go of the emotions we're feeling. And you have every right to feel those emotions, no matter what the reason"

"i really don't have every right to cry"

"Yes, you do. Crying is a natural response to pain, stress, and emotional turmoil. It's how our bodies release pent-up feelings. So don't feel bad about it. Just let it out, and I'll be here to comfort you"

"but then I'll make you feel bad..."

"No, you won't. I want to be here for you, to support you and help you through this. You have nothing to apologise for, my love"

"I don't wanna make you feel bad... I'm always crying on you and overloading you with my problems and you never get a chance to cry on me or tell me about your problems... it's always about me"

"No, that's not true, Lena. You know I'm always here to listen to you when you need to talk"

"it is true... it's always about me"

"It's not always about you, my love. Sometimes things just happen and we need to deal with them the best we can"

"but I'm always the one with problems... I feel like you've spent the last like 6 years dealing with me crying all the time" I said. He looked at me and cupped my face in his hands so I was looking at him.

"Look at me, Lena. You're not a burden, okay? You're the most important person in my life. And I love you for who you are, not despite your problems"

"no you don't..."

"Yes, I do. I've never said otherwise. And if you don't believe me, then let me show you"

"how...?"

"By continuing to be here for you, no matter what. By listening to you when you need to talk, and holding you when you need a shoulder to cry on. By loving you unconditionally, just as you are" he said. With that I hid my face in his neck and cried. I had no reason to cry but he didn't care. He was there no matter what. "It's okay to cry, baby. Just let it all out. I'm here for you" he said. I cried only for a few minutes and then I looked at him. "Feel better now?"