Ich Liebe Dich, Lena ~ pt 3

☆ Thirty-Six ☆

(Back to Lena's POV)

It must have been a month. I woke up and the doctors told me that it was the start of July. Lando walked in with the kids and his face immediately lit up as he saw me and so did Mirabella's. Did he come and see me every day? He held me close and Mirabella jumped on my bed and cuddled me. The twins looked so big in their stroller. I couldn't believe that I missed a whole month of them growing. I had to say something.

"I'm so sorry... I don't know what came over me that night... I didn't want to end up like this but my brain forced me..." I said

"Shh, baby. Don't worry about it right now. We're all here together, and that's what matters. Mirabella is just so overjoyed to have you back with us" he said

"I can tell" I said with a smile while looking down at our daughter clinging onto me. "I'll let you find me some help... I promise... I'll let you help me sort out my mental health issues... I'll do it for Mira..."

"Good. We'll go back to therapy and see how that works. We'll get you sorted, my love" he said. He kissed my lips for what felt like ages. I had my little cuddles with our babies and I fell asleep. I needed to sleep. I woke up to my wedding ring and engagement ring back on my left ring finger. I had to be strong. No more attempts. I had a family. I had 3 kids who were gonna grow up to do amazing things. I had a loving husband. I had the perfect life and I nearly let that go too many times. I vowed from that day that I would never harm myself again.

Me and Lando decided to have nightly talks on our balcony when the kids were asleep. Stargazing was something that distracted me at night. Each star somehow reminded me of a memory. Our story was wild but amazing.

It all started off from that one meet and greet. We fell in love on that weekend. I met my soulmate that weekend. He drove 10 hours to get me from Hockenheim and brought me to Monaco to live with him. He stayed by my side through every cut. Through every meal. Through every drag of my vape. Through every drag of my cigarettes. Through every attempt. Through every one of those 3 miscarriages. Through finding out I was a princess and was kidnapped. Through my pregnancy with Mirabella. Through her being premature. Through every one of her karting races. Through killing my dad. Through my horrible thoughts. Through my crazy pregnancy with the twins. Through everything. And he was gonna stay with me forevermore. We knew that.

"Ich Liebe Dich, Lan"

"Ich Liebe Dich, Lena"

(don't stop reading yet though. bonus chapter coming tomorrow ❤️)