Ich Liebe Dich, Lena ~ pt 3

☆ Seventeen ☆

We got Charles to look after Mirabella for the night so we could go out. It was like a few days after the Austrian GP. We didn't really dress up at all. We just went in matching hoodies. Quadrant hoodies to be specific. They were hoodies from the first collection he did since we were together and he got me to model a few things. Those hoodies had so many memories. We were at the club for a while. I felt comfortable in this club. I never had anything bad happen to me at that club until that night. We both had our drinks and I was fine for ages until I felt sick. I just went to the toilet for a bit just to see if I had to throw up but it was way worse than that. I was throwing up blood and the next second I completely blacked out in the toilet. I must have been out for a few days because I woke up in the hospital. All sorts of machines beeping around me. Lando was sleeping in the chair next to me and Mirabella was cuddling into me. I held her head the best I could and then I saw her look up and squeal which caused Lando to wake up.

"Hey, baby girl" I said as I felt Mirabella cuddle into me again. Her little arms wrapped around my neck. I looked to Lando and he was basically crying while kissing my forehead

"Thank god you're alive..." he said before pressing his lips firmly on mine. "How are you feeling?"

"like shit... what even happened to me...? last thing I remember is me in the club toilet and coughing up blood..."

"Well, you were poisoned, my love. But don't worry, the doctors say you'll make a full recovery. It's just going to take some time" he said. I was poisoned... that's why I felt so ill after I had that drink... I looked back down at Mirabella who was still crying while cuddling me. I think these tears were more happy tears.

"how long has Mira been crying like this...? Has she been cuddling me for a while now?"

"about 2 hours cuddling you but crying for about 3 hours now. Maybe she just wants her mummy to hold her?"

"Well I've got you now, baby girl. I'm not going anywhere" I said as I placed a small little kiss on her lips.

"That's my girls" I heard Lando say under his breath "Now try to get some rest, okay?"

"Yeah, I'm still a bit tired..."

"Just close your eyes and try to rest, my love. I'll be here with you, holding your hand until you feel better" he said while taking my free hand in his.

"I love you, Lan"

"I love you too, my sweet Lena. Always" he said. A couple hours later I woke up to hearing Lando groaning.

"you okay, baby?" I asked while looking at him

"Just tired, my love. Can't seem to get comfortable"

"Get in here with me. This hospital bed is actually quite big. As much as Mira gives good cuddles. I could do with some cuddles from my husband" I said while moving over slightly so he could get in the bed with me. He got in with me and started cuddling me. "Comfier now?"

"Yes, so much better now that I'm cuddling with my wife in our bed. I've missed this so much"

"Well I'm here now and I'm not going anywhere" I said while cuddling into him while still holding Mirabella.

"I was thinking..."

"Yeah?"

"Maybe we could try for another baby...?"

"I wouldn't mind it to be honest... I think I'm just scared because of what we went through with Mira... the last thing I want is another premature baby"

"I understand your fear, my love, but the doctors have assured us that it shouldn't happen again. And even if it does, we'll be prepared for it this time. Let's take it one step at a time, okay?"

"but it's also getting pregnant. it took 4 attempts to get pregnant with Mira"

"That's true, but you're in better health now and the chances of it happening are much higher. The only reason it took so long last time was because you were still healing from the incident. If that time comes, we'll face it head on and conquer it together"

"I just don't wanna go through another miscarriage. those 3 absolutely ruined me mentally and I still blame myself to this day"

"Lena, you must remember that those were not your fault. They were part of the journey, the struggles we faced together. We've grown stronger from them. As for miscarriages, they're a part of the process some couples go through"

"I'm just really scared to go through the whole process again but maybe we could try. I'll do this. We'll try a couple times. If we don't get pregnant within 2 tries then we give up and we just live with Mira as an only child, okay?"

"I promise, we'll take it one step at a time. But let's try first, okay?"

"we'll try for one when I'm feeling back to normal. I'll come off my birth control today and I'll wait until my next period. We can try after that. Just don't start complaining when you have to deal with grumpy me because of my period"

"I'll deal with it, don't worry. And I promise, we'll make it through this together. Just focus on getting better and feeling comfortable with the idea again"

"What would we even call the next baby? Mirabella was called that because we used to call her our little miracle. I have no ideas for another baby"

"Maybe it will come to us? We'll give it some time and see what happens, okay?"

"yeah. It just seems weird to think about having another kid. For the last four years Mira has been our only child"

"I know, but things can change. We never thought we'd have children, but here we are. We adapted, and so can we. And think of it this way, Mira will finally have a sibling"

"yeah. at least Mira will have a little brother or sister to play with when they're old enough"

"Or maybe even twins?"

"Oh god. don't make me think about twins. I have no clue how we would cope with 2 babies and Mira. I think I would lose my shit"

"I'm joking, love. I don't think it would ever come to twins. But let's take it one step at a time. First, let's see if we even get pregnant again"

"yeah. we'll work it out"

"Exactly. So, what do you say? Are you ready to start trying again?"

"once I'm out of hospital and feeling okay then yeah. I think i'm ready to try for another baby. let's give Mira a little baby sibling"

"Alright, let's do this. I love you both so much and can't wait to expand our family"