Autumn
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Life is tough at the moment. Its been abiut two months and Winter has to return to work. It is my first day alone with Ember and I am so worried that things could go wrong. I have a routine set up that I follow every morning and this morning is no different exept that it takes longer since Winter is not here.
Although Winter is missing everything goes according to plan, I get everything done that should be done. The day flies by as I spend my time caring for Ember. I get a bit startled when I hear the door open. "Is it 6:30 already?" I am playing with Ember as Winter comes up behind me and gives me a kiss on the cheek. I have missed the intimacy so much but we can't do it when Ember can hear is what I keep persisting. "Hello my sweet." He says as he hugs me close. "I have missed you my sweet." I say as I grab his arms that are hanging over my shoulders. I pull them over my head and turn around. I look him in the eye and say "Winter," I pause as we stare into eachothers eyes lost in the moment. "You know I don't like hugs." I tell him with a straight face.
The moment is so tense I just want to kiss him and make out for the whole evening. He grabs me close and starts to put his lips on mine and I can feel the heat rising. I am just so touch deprived that I flinch slightly when the kiss last for over ten seconds. Then we hear Ember starting to cry. We break the kiss immidiatly as I go over to her and rock her in my arms and then feed her. It feels like it was yesterday when she was born but its already been so long. The rest of the day continues like always. Then at the end, Winter rocks Ember to sleep and we go lay in bed aswell.
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Winter
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Its been a while since I first got to hold Ember in my arms. But today I am working in the toddler room instead of the baby room and it will stay that way. It is Embers first day at the nursery and all the staff are exited to see Ember. I just could not shut my mouth about her and its been driving everyone crazy. We walk up to the babyroom and are greeted by Carly. "Oh my god! She is so cute!" I thank Carly as Autumn is giving Ember one last hug before she hands her over to Carly. I tell Carly everything she needs to know and both me and Autumn go to either the office or the toddler room.
Autumn
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Once I walk in the office I see Marjorie light up. "Autumn!" She says exitedly. She really wants to hug me but in the end she doesn't. Hello Marjorie, Reece." I say looking at the two of them. As I sit down Marjorie starts bombarding me with questions and comments. "How are you?", "How is Ember?", "Got any sleeps the last months?", "Ember is already so grown up.", "When will you visit us with Ember?" I sigh to myself as I start answering her questions. I see Reece snickering in cirner of my eye and resist the urge to kick him.
Eventually after I have answerd all of the questions from Marjorie, Reece walk up to me and gives a quick hug. Before I can react he already has his hands to himself. I quickly kick him in the shins as he screams in pain, "Autumn!". "Don't ever do that again." I tell him. "I thought you loosend up a bit since I saw you hugging Ember through the window. "Reece," I give him a mad stare as he backs away from me. "That is very different, she is my child." Reece scoffs as he said. "Well, what does it matter?! I am just so exited and I needed to let it out somewhere!" He shouts at me. "Well, than let it out to Marjorie." I suggest but he isn't having it.
"Aut, your my little sister. Watching you grow alongside me has been one of the most amazing things in my life. And know that your all grown up and getting to feel what I felt just makes me really emotional." Reece says. As he talks I feel the emotions getting to me but I try to hide them. "Autumn, you can't be so vulnerable, you have to be tough." I think to myself. Reece opens his arms seeing me struggle. This time I don't push him away but I give him a hug. In the corner of my eye I see Marjorie trying to hold back her exitement but I don't pay attention to it. The hug lasts for a short while and then I pull back. Reece lifts up my chin and wipes one of my tears away. "Its alright lil sis." He says and he lets me go. He walks out and Marjorie follows. When she is in the hallway I hear her scream in exitement from what hust happened. I sit down embarrased. "Autumn, why did you make such a fool of yourself?" I ask myself.
At the end of the day me and Winter go home with Ember. On he car ride home I tell him what happened in the office today. He supports me completly and is happy... that I showed emotion. I don't understand why he is happy with that but I let him be.
