Crush

Chapter 14 - Exposed

"So you like Ryan" said Richard
"Yea ofc,,,,,we are good friends" said May
"I didn't meant it in that way" said Richard
"Then?" May asked
"Do you like him more than a friend" said Richard
"Well..... please don't tell him..that i do" said May
"Okay" Richard replied
"Can i trust him? Ohh god!! I should've said no!!!!!" May cried

THE NEXT DAY

Everything was just normal Ryan was talking to May normally. And everything was under control except for May feelings which were neither fading nor were going away. They were just piling up...
The school gave some holidays to the students because of the rise in temperature. So May and Ryan didn't met for few days. They just texted each other. Out of blue May started to have bad thoughts in her mind related to Ryan. "A guy as perfect as him.. isn't meant for an imperfect girl like me"
"I don't even know that i'm a good friend to him or not,,why on earth will he be my friend?..He doesn't even have to" said May to herself
May was letting bad thoughts to linger long. Her depression and anxiety was taking control all over body.
But she's the type of girl who doesn't beg for attention even if she needs that soo muchh.....She needs someone to understand her anxiety..calm her,takes care of her. But all she has was no one. Even though she had her friends but she never wanted to worry them about how she's been..
She decided to distant herself from everyone. She wasn't seeing anyone's text and wasn't picking calls..
Ryan was worried for her but all he did was sending her tik toks instead of asking her how she felt. Which made May more insecure.
"I thought he cared about me..Well i'm a fool i expected so muchh knowing that we are that parallel lines.."

"I didn't know he made me happy because he exists in my world,, without knowing i didn't exits in his"

May's thoughts were getting terrible...
She started to ignore everyone. On the other hand Ryan who was worried for her texted her. But May wasn't much active on her socials.
*One Day*
"Lemme check my socials" thought May (it was midnight)
She opened Ryan texts mistakenly...
"Are you okay" he texted
"I'm not,i want to die" May replied
The moment she texted him back he came active and read the message. But it was his first time seeing such text. He was all blanked he didn't knew what to say,,but still he tried his best because he knew that something might be off because..*The girl who's always smiling was suddenly frowning*
Ryan tried his best to motivate May and told her to sleep.
"Okay" said May
The very next day she was a bit relieved...
"I was wrong,,if it hadn't been him then i haven't been this well" May thought.

Then after all those days of anxiousness.

It was finally time to go to school.
May was happy that he'll see Ryan after sooo many days.
The moment she entered the class she saw him talking to Driva both were laughing over silly nerdy jokes that were probably hard to understand.
May was jealous at first but then she thought
"They were just asking doubts, nothing much"

But soon both of them started discussing doubts...Which made May jealous. She thought Driva also likes Ryan.
"Well both to them look good together" said May
"Are u crazy or drunk?" Ulyssa asked
"Well,why?? Both are smart,good looking, they're good in sports, matches each other's humour.....etc..They will probably make a good couple together" said May sorrowfully
"The tone you had will saying all this doesn't sounds that you're probably happy for them" said Ulyssa.
"I am...happy as long as Ryan is... Didn't you noticed how happy they seemed together plus they have compatibility... On the other hand i'm a silly stupid girl,,we literally have no match at all" said May
"Says who?? Opposite attracts" said Ulyssa
"Those are just sayings" May replied

Ryan who was talking to Driva notices May and comes to her
"Hey" said Ryan
"Hello..How are you?" said May
"Good,,what about you" said Ryan
"Good" said May and moved on..
               (On the same night)
While texting Ryan May thought
"I can't be a barrier in his life.. it's okay if he doesn't like me that's my fate..I'm not meant to be loved"
"But how do i let go of someone i still carry in my heart?" said May with a sigh.

                              TBC

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