Crush

Chapter 15 - Destined

The next day in school. When May entered the class she was normal..which she wasn't but she acted like that. Nothing much happened she wasn't attending morning sessions with Ryan. As she felt that she's disturbing their privacy.
"Are you going to stay here and lure him from afar?" said Ulyssa while noticing May's sadness.
"I think he likes Driva so who am i to interfere between them" said May
Ulyssa with a confused face "You have just made an image in your mind which you think is true but is actually not!!!"
"It is true though,i told you they have compactibilities" said May
"Well do you have any clue they like each other???" said Ulyssa
May tells her the story once Driva told her when they were talking."She was constantly talking about Ryan,,,So i asked her if she has something for him but she said No clearly...Still i don't believe her the way both shares their doubts"
"If i was you i would haven't thought something like that"
"Don't you trust Ryan??,if it would be something like that he should have told you back then..And he's not the type of guy that will let any girl hold his arm that tightly knowing that he has a crush on someone " said Ulyssa
"Things here started to make sense" said May
"Well that's what i'm sayin,they barely talk to each other and you just saw them together twice or thrice,, blaming them for being liking each other is a bit silly" said Ulyssa
"Well....the things you are saying does make sense but still...i don't know why but i'm afraid of losing him...All of a sudden i started to had feelings for him..now he's my crush i like him soo muchhh then he'll ever know....he's the only guy who made me feel special for being me..i know that i'm silly and annoying sometimes..and i do argue with him alot but that's what a girl in love does..."

"I can't made him love me...i'm just a girl with a crush on him" said May in a weeping voice.
"You know when you're angry with him,he do tries his best to cheer you up...you have a gem by your side..but you're the one who's letting him slide" said Ulyssa.
"Well i'll not let him slide.., said May
The moment they were talking Ryan walks in saying hi to May both of them started to talk. Ulyssa slided off to let two lovers chit chat..

(After school at May's place while blushing over Ryan's text)
"Although i was feeling a bit low and i didn't even texted him that well, but still the bond lasts...he always manages to make me smile"
"Those small things that he do... always reminds me why i feel for him" said May to herself
"Well...why you don't want a girlfriend?" May asked
"Well...i want to focus on my goal first" said Ryan
"Ahh okay.."
"I'll be rooting for you!!!!!" said May
"Thanks" Ryan replied
"Well...what if someone liked you or somehow you like someone then?" said May
"Will see" Ryam replied
"This dumbo,,,can't he say properly" May thought.

Here comes the midnight again when there was no one not even Ryan it was just May and her silence.
"Until how long do i have to fake it to myself
Am i just a burden hard to love?
In the silence of the night where the stars gleam i find solace in solitude,in solidary dream
I feel so blessed and yet unhinged."said May to herself

At 3 am sharp she slept with her thoughts lingering all over her body.

                  (In the morning)
"All i want is a man who can handle all this anxiousness"
"But what's veracity is that it's just out of question" said May consoling herself.
                       (At school)
"I can't let those bad and terrible thoughts to control over me"
"Should i share this with Ryan?"
"No i can't.....I DON'T WANT TO BE A BURDEN TO HIM"
"I can do nothing except locking up myself,crying in the corner, hoping for someone to hold my hand and take me to somewhere far away.....maybe with Ryan....

"I do realised it late that, he was speaking to me in words and i was looking at him with feelings" said May miserably.

                               TBC

            
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