Jake Webber X Johnnie Guilbert |•One Shots•|

He Doesn't Love Me, And He Never Will

Johnnies POV:
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White room,
No one else around,
Machines around me,
Beeping.

What happened... oh yeah.. I passed out..

"Doctor, he's awake."
A soft female voice, calmly announced.

I couldn't move.
I felt numb.

"Johnnie, do you remember anything from what had happened last night?"
I stayed quiet.

I don't know what was going on...
I don't want to know what was going on.

"You'll probably have to stay in the hospital for a while. Your wounds are really deep. It'll take a while to heal. It'd be better if you stayed here, where we can take care of you."

"Please... don't send me away..."
My voice sounded raspy, like I've been crying for hours.

"We won't... but if this ever happens again, we'll have to.."

I stayed quiet.
The doctor walked out to get something.
Where's Carrington?
Where's Jake?
Did they not visit?...
Do they not care?...

I can barely remember anything from last night... how did I end up here.
Who called the ambulance..

The doctor walked in with a lady.
She was carrying food towards me.
She set the tray beside me.

"How'd I get here?.."

"Your friend called us. He had red hair and tattoos. He told me to tell you that he would visit today. He never said what time though."

I hummed in response.
I watched them leave again.
I had nothing to do.
Just lay,
And lay,
And lay.

I looked at the food the nurse brought.
It had meat, vegetables, bananas and more
vegetables.
Yuck.

My phone was on a counter, beside me. I grabbed it and opened it. I had a lot of notification
from Tara and Carringtion.
None from Jake...
I opened the message Tara sent me.

'Johnnie! Please answer! Are you ok?!
Please Johnnie im worried for you!
Jake called me and told me what he saw
Please wake up
Johnnie'

Did Jake see my bandages... yeah, no shit.
I called Tara and she immediately answered.

"JOHNNIE! OH THANK GOD YOU'RE ALIVE! I WAS SO WORRIED! CAN I COME VISIT YOU RIGHT NOW?!"

"Tara.. where Jake?... he said he would visit but he never said what time.."

".... He never planned to visit you though?..."
I nearly dropped my phone.

"B-but he told the doctor he was..."

"He told me what happened at my party.. and he never called the hospital. It was Carrington.. he just told the doctor to lie to you, make you believe that Jake went there with you... im sorry Johnnie."

Why?... I never done anything like this to him..
Why?.. I should've never told him.
I should've died.
I knew he didn't care about me.

"I gotta go..."
I quietly said.

I hung up and put my phone back on the counter.
All I could do was just stare at the white ceiling.

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Carrington somehow managed to convince the hospital to leave me go early.
He drove me back home. The car ride was silent. We didn't talk about anything that had happened.
We got home and Jake was there.
He didn't say anything.
He looked guilty.
I walked to my room and closed the door.
I tried crying but I was too tired to.
All I could do was torture myself with these thoughts.

The door slightly opened.
"Johnnie, can I come in?.."
I stayed silent.

Jake peeked his head and looked at me. He walked in and sat down on the edge of the bed.
"I.. im sorry for that... Tara told me what she told you. I never knew that happened...
I care so much about you.
I don't want you to do this anymore.."
He lightly touched my bandages.

"Im sorry for telling you that at the party... I shouldn't have said that. But I did see you in the bed. I saw your bandages, and I knew what had happened.."
"I walked towards you and I tried talking to you but you wouldn't answer so I shook your head to wake you up but you didn't. I then went to Carrington and told him to check up on you and I guess he then called the hospital."

I quietly told him,
"You don't see me the same way anymore. You can't look at me without thinking about what I had told you at the party.."

He stared at the floor while fidgeting with his fingers.
"I love you a lot Johnnie, I really do.. you're always there for me, and I really love that about you,
but..."

"You love Tara more, I know."
I interrupted.

He let out a loud sigh and covered his face.
He looked guilty.
He felt bad.

"Would you have dated me if you weren't with her?.."

"Well... I- I don't know.."

"It's alright.. I know you're happy with Tara, and that's what I want to see.. You happy with the person you love."

Jake looked at me with his dark chocolate eyes.
I hate when he looks at me that way, it makes me fall for him even more.
I slowly got up in a sitting position and sat beside him. We looked at each other in the eyes.
He leaned closer to me and... gave me a hug..
I didn't hug him back. I felt too weak to move ever more.

"I'll try to stop loving you.. I promise.."

"You don't have to, but if you really want to, then you can."

He let go and looked at me once more before getting up and leaving my room. I stayed where I was and just stared at the distance. It was impossible for me to even try to make him love me. If I did, I would feel guilty since he's with Tara.
I had to let him go.
I need to let him go.

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(if I make feel like it)

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