I never got chosen for anything, I had never been loved either of course I've had boyfriends in the past but none of them loved me every single relationship I've had was toxic and none of them loved me, I loved them but whenever another came along every one of my lovers choose them over me, it made me think why not me? Why was I never the chosen one? Never the loved one, I'm a single child, yet my parents never chose me. They always chose my friends, and they treated my friends with love and me with disrespect.
And then reece came along, he tried so hard to get me to open up and go on a date with him but every advance he tried I always rejected after all why would he ever love someone like me? No one else loved me, so why would he? He soon became like the rest he told me that I was just a distraction, I believed it for a minute but the look on his face told me otherwise, it told me that he was in fact not being truthul so when he walked out I followed him, and now I don't whether to feel regret or happiness that I followed him.
I didn't deserve to be in a relationship, I mean, look at me, I was nothing like the other girl, yet he still chose me, why me? why did he choose me out of everyone else, He was handsome, compassionate, kind, patient, loyal everyone wanted him no one wanted her yet he still chose her over the hundred of people that wanted him but why? that's all she could think about. why did he choose her? Out of all people, her!
I hated the fact I always questioned his words where he said he loved me, and that I was beautiful inside and out but I just couldn't believe him, I wasn't beautiful at all what did he see in me, because all I saw was someone who was unloveable, someone that was ugly and unhappy with herself, I hate my body, I hate me.
He didn't deserve someone like me, someone who always questioned him. He deserved better than me.
