Depression works in many ways, the way I know depression is you find your days blending together to create one endless and suffocating loop, your brain starts to remove every memory that brought you joy and makes the ones that brought you pain and sadness the core memories.
You find yourself staying indoors not wanting to go outdoors, you don't have motivation and you just want to stay in bed all day, you feel numb or you feel pain and sadness, sometimes you feel anger, anger that succumbs you deeply.
You snap at people and push them away not wanting to accept help or revive it thinking you're better off dead, you don't want to pull people down with you after all your just a nothing, your just a nobody.
There is nothing that you could do that changed the way you felt, you tried counselling, you tried talking, you tried coping mechanisms some unhealthy ones and some healthy ones yet nothing seemed to permanently heal you.
The only other solution you could turn to was death, after all once you're dead you can't feel anything, so you try and try and you fail, but you always got told in your past that you need to fail a couple times to succeed. So that is what you will do.
That's the way I see it, that's the way I was brought up, I need help but I don't see the light, nobody else understands me, that was until Mia came along.
A/n: Charlotte's point of view
