As My Eyes Admire Thee

end of a chapter

As much as this pain weighs, I have to move on.

Because of my foolishness, I was caught in life's painful yawn.

But it's okay, it was given to me for a reason to grow.

To grow in my will, for life's forever flow.

Atleast your happy with them,

Maybe they can make you laugh without end.

but I wish it was me who you wanted.

Now I feel some weird pain, in which you planted.

I wish it was me who you say I love you too

Someone who endlessly gives gifts to you.

Someone who compliments you every day.

Someone who will love you even in your darkest days.

A part of me still replays those memories.

Like a sad movie video on a loop.

Even when I  try to think something else,

The thought always came up, always the memory of you.

Everything still reminds me of you.

Like a jumpscare, which comes out of the blue.

But now, what really can I do?

If it isn't me, who your heart clings too.

Every melody I hear, with such beauty.

Whether if it is sad or happy,

It always reminded me of someone

and that someone is still you.

Like the sun and the moon,

They meet at one point.

But even the sun and moon depart.

Because they can never even join.

I have released my feelings,

Now, what did I lose?

Will you still continue to care for me?

Or would you have a different thought of me because of what I said to you.

Will you still continue to be concerned?

Or will you act like nothing has ever been observed.

Will you still wonder if I'm okay?

Or will you now color my life in gray.

I miss the warmth of your embrace.

The one feeling where I felt your grace.

Maybe I also miss the joy you give me,

Whenever I look into your gorgeous face.

But I'm thankful. I'm very, very thankful.

For the smiles you gave me, I'm thankful.

For the times you made me feel loved, I'm thankful.

For the times you gave me peace, I'm thankful.

For caring about me, I'm thankful.

For seeing the beauty in me, I'm thankful.

But if they give your heart, that burden of weight.

That feeling they left you and make you feel betrayed.

Just remember I am here.

For you to feel loved again, I am here to wait.

If they ever break your heart, like what fools do.

Just know that I'll be waiting here for you.

Until then, I'm thankful for this chapter.

Because you said it honestly, unlike a foolish actor.

Remember, I love you, and I care about you.

Even when you have no one, my love and God's love will do.

Maybe in another universe, it was me and you.

I was the person you'd say I love you too.

I was the person who'd give gifts to you.

I was the person who would make you happy.

But until then it is only a dream, I can imagine too.

Until then, as this sun slowly departs like a loom.

with this chapter, I conclude.

Till our next eclipse,

My moon.