Deadly

34.

Celestia

It's been a week. We're back home now

I've still not told Saint or anyone what Daichi did and I don't know when I'll be able to.

It only took two days after we arrived home for the rest of the Japanese mafia to be taken down. Now Papà, Saint and Charles are sharing what was left between them so at least there was a gain from this.

As it turns out it was Samuel (Mr bodyguard) who sold the information to Daichi, that's how he knew about my work for Charles and where I was all the time.

He's locked away hanging onto his life just like Daichi is. My father, Alonso and Saint all take turns between them to beat up the two men. I'm not fully healed enough to do anything yet but as soon as I am I'll be the one to kill them.

A day I can't wait for.

Papà has let Alonso take hold of the reins of the mafia so he can care for me which I appreciate more than I think he knows.

Saint has been over here a few times over the days we've been home but it's hard to try and be normal again when I'm hiding something from him. He knows I'm keeping something from him so neither of us knows how to act.

I just finished showering and I've changed into pyjama shorts and a sports bra, now I'm searching for one of my oversized T-shirts.

I'm fine to walk without the crutches as long as I put as little pressure as possible on the wounded leg and only walk a few steps no matter what my father says

"Bambina?" I hear papà call out and I turn forgetting about the scar which is very obviously on show since I don't have a shirt on yet

We both stand still facing each other, not a word between us as I realise what happened and his eyes are glued to the scar

"Celestia, bambina wh-whats that? What happened?" he asks cautiously

It's obvious this isn't a stab wound and he knows that

"I- um, Daichi he" I sniffle as my father steps closer to me "h-he," I don't finish my sentence before tears pour down my face and papà brings me into his arms

"What did he do baby? Tell me what that man did"

"He t-took my-my..."

"Come here" he takes me to my bed and I sit against the headboard with him in front of me

"He gave me a h-hysterectomy," I say quietly wiping the tears from my face

"What?" my father asks breathlessly

"He took my womb"

"Oh baby" he sniffles pulling me to him "I'm so sorry, I'm so so sorry" his voice cracks

"I can't change it now" I chuckle humourlessly

"You can be sad Celestia"

"I've been sad for too long already papà"

"My sweet girl" he pulls back and places his hand gently on my cheek

"How am I going to tell Saint?" the thought has me biting my lip to hold back sobs

"I don't know baby, I don't know but he'll be here for you. You know that, he loves you so much this won't change that"

"It's not fair on him though"

"It's not fair on either of you, you don't have to be the only one that's left with this. He deserves to know and you deserve his support. He loves you Bambi, and if he does one wrong thing I'll kill him so brutally"