Dazai has been acting weird all day he seems really out of it. I'm worried for him especially about what he said about not doing the internship I know the answer he gave to the class was full of crap. If there is one thing I noticed about Dazai is that he will pretend to be lazy to throw people off so they don't question other reasons. I haven't stopped thinking about what he said all day and the more I think the more anxious I am getting. The bell rang, I have decided to walk with him so I can at least get a reasoning as to what is he thinking. Plus it is a kind gesture and he looks like he needs someone right now. The walk started out with silence until I pluck up the courage to finally ask him "Are you really planning to ask Aizawa to not do any internships" without a second thought he nodded taking that as a sign that he listening to me I continue "what's the real answer because I know you aren't that lazy and I know you know the benefits out way the negatives." by the time I finished my sentence his eyes were wide his hands stated to shake as I try to snap him out of it his condition only gets worse now his eyes have clouded over and his whole body was vibrating like he was reliving a nightmare. I don't know what's happening let alone what to do. I grabbed onto his shoulders trying to ground him repeated his name every time it gets louder. My vision goes blurry as the water was threatening to leave my eyes. It's all my fault I pushed him too far. I can't believe I did this I should have known better. Thoughts racing in my head.
"Momo..."
He's back without thinking I bring him into a hug and start apologizing. He stands there comtaplating something he assusures me that it is not my fault and that I couldn't have known this was going to happen. We end up parting ways and I head home still shocked of what just happened. And my thoughts that my head keeps cycling through... I just hugged Dazai...
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I somehow made my way back to my room now staring at a blank ceiling. I had no idea why this is happening, why now? It has never been this bad before is it because I have so many memories of her in outside of Yokohama. I always wonder if she is proud of me and what I am doing. Knowing her she is not and would probably scold me if she ever saw me again. To stop myself from going down another rabbit hole I instead started to scroll through my emails and sorting junk emails. Until my mind numbed and my body shut down.
A/N: I low-key don't know what to write right now so here is what ya'll get because I wanted to write something but also did not feel like adding and doing my normal research I do for each chapter.
P.S: I am about to read my fourth book that was written by Osamu Dazai. My friend got it for me on my birthday lol. Guess what it is or guess the books I've already read by him(tbh it's probably easy to guess)
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