PeiSui You Deserve To Be Loved

Worried

Ming Guang

Not knowing what else to do I headed home. Qingxuan made it clear Wudu didn't want to see anyone and it was also clear that they didn't want me there either.

I can't understand why though, Wudu and I have been friends for years. There have been things I could only tell him and vice versa. Before Qingxuan ascended he always talked to me about how afraid he was for his brother.

When they did finally ascend he was beyond relieved they were safe with him once again. Qingxuan knows I would never do anything to hurt him so I can't understand why their acting like this.

"I see you're not taking the news very well". Ling Wen said coming in and making her way over to see me. "I'd feel a little better if I knew what it was that happened to him". I whispered with my head lowered. "Qingxuan didn't tell you"?

"No, and it was clear they didn't want me there either". "That doesn't sound like them. Did you do something to upset them"? "No, not that I know of at least. They know we're friends. They know how strong of a bond we have with each other so I can't understand why their doing this all of a sudden. I know their scared and want their brother to be ok but that's what I want as well".

"It's hard when you can't be near the person you love most when their hurt isn't"? She asked softly. I teared up. Ling Wen is the only one who knows of my true feelings for Shi Wudu. I've wanted to tell him for a while now but never could find the right time or figure out how to tell him.

Flashback

The two of us were standing together on a balcony. The sun was shining with a light breeze in the air. This kind of weather is exactly what we needed after the mission we just had. We had both been ordered to eliminate a ghost that was targeting single mothers with children.

In the end, it turned out that the ghost was a male who had lost his wife and children after failing to protect them from an attacker and had gone into a deep depression afterwards.

"I think I'm going soft Ming". He whispered looking out into the distance. "What makes you say that"? "I kinda feel bad for him, I can't imagine not having Qingxuan in my life, their all I have left". '

Having sympathy for someone doesn't mean your weak, it means you have a heart and can understand why the person did what he did no matter how bad his actions were. at some point in time, he was good".

"Do you think I'll ever have what he had"?

"A family"?

"Someone that loves me".

"Wudu". "It's something I've thought about for a while now Ming, I just don't know if it's for me". "Why wouldn't it be"? "I'm not the most approachable person there is, I'm always serious and barely interact with anyone".

'And? That just means you are a private person and are very careful about the people you let into your life as well as your sister's. Anyone that can't understand that doesn't deserve to be in your life at all".

He smiled softly. "You're a good friend Ming Guang". "I'm always going to be here for you Wudu, Don't ever forget that".

End of flashback

Is that what happened Wudu? Did you find someone you thought you could trust but they ended up hurting you instead? I hate this. I hate not knowing what's going on with you. All I want to do right now is hold you in my arms and make sure you feel safe and protected. I'm sorry, I'm sorry I wasn't there.

"Would it be all right if I went talk with Qingxuan? Maybe they'll be more willing to tell me". I nodded. 'Please do". I whispered.

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