ODDS OF LOVE : SEASON SIX

Episode 13

" Sometimes I feel like the world is spinning out of control"

In the bathroom mirror DuBuis practiced telling his husband that he was being diagnosed as bipolar. He stopped speaking and lowered his head with his eyes closed. Suddenly he felt so weak and useless. He could not protect his family. He could not help his sister. He could not even control his own sanity. Exactly what good was he?

" Sometimes my fear is overwhelming "

Spencer in his chair tried to summon the strength to go into his living room. Just roll one inch forward, he told himself. But he just couldn't. All he could see was that man...... All he could hear was that man..... All he could feel.... All he could smell......

DuBuis wanted him to call Reverend Lynn. He couldn't. He couldn't tell anyone else what happened that night. It was hard enough having had to tell the police detectives.

He sighed. If he could not tell his therapist how could he tell a jury and a judge in the courtroom?

Just move forward into the room, he told himself. It was just a room. It could not hurt him.

But he just couldn't. So he went back to his and DuBuis's bedroom. And he hated himself for his weakness.

" I'm so afraid of loving and losing"

Richard tucked the blanket around his sleeping daughter in her single bed, kissed her forehead good night, and stepped back to look at her peaceful young face. He was searching desperately for a resemblance to him or anyone in his family. Then he sighed deeply and left the room.

He went to the living room and found Nigel ordering flowers online for the wedding while curled up on the sofa. Nigel looked up at him and instantly read his emotions.

" She's your daughter, Richard," Nigel said firmly. " The test will prove that. I'm so sure it will. Don't ask me why. I just know you are. "

Richard sat beside him and leaned against his fiance's body, trying to draw comfort and strength from him as Nigel held him close. He for the first time in his life felt helpless and uncertain. " But what if I am not? How can I give her up ? "

                      " But I will win at any cost "

Bullet Lane spoke into his cell phone," I got a job for you. Should be easy enough. My bitch cousin needs a little wake up call to remind her exactly who I am. Not her though. I want to slice the heart out of her. "