𝐑𝐞𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 ✧ 𝐀𝐧𝐭𝐨𝐧 𝐋𝐞𝐞

Chapter 15

Know I've done wrong, Left your heart torn
Is that what devils do? 

Took you so low, Only where fools go

"Anton? Yes I am..." Said the voice from the other end of the line.

"What? First of all how did you get my number? Why the fvck are you calling me? What do you want?" I said, all harshly.

"Just promise you won't hang up."

"Answer me first."

"I promise I'll explain everything, I'll answer everything just listen to me for once. Please don't fvcking hang up." He insisted. And to both of our surprise, I finally gave in.

"Fine. I'll listen. But I swear if my questions aren't answered or if u fail to explain I WILL block you and report you the next time you come to talm to me in school."

"And for what will you report me for exactly?"

"Harassment."

"Trying to apologize is now called harassment? Damn..."

"Will you start what you want to say or do you want me hang up? And first tell me who gave you my number." I said, threatening him.

"Baekseung did."

"Of course he did. Anyways now explain why you called."

"I'll get to the point. Do you know why I left you?"

"Because you wanted to focus on your studies." I said as if it was obvious, which, to me atleast, was.

"Wrong. You don't know the number of times I've tried to tell you but miss 'I don't give a fvck' here wouldn't listen."

"Well then what else could be the reason? Mr. and Mrs. Lee were never against us dating."

"They normally weren't. But when they learnt that I could sacrifice better studying opportunities for it, they were."

"What-"

"Choyeon, I never wanted to leave, ever. I only did it because I had no choice ok? My parents wouldn't lete stay in the country instead of education in a foreign country for a according to them 'stupid and worthless relationship'. But I promise, I never thought like that. I loved you back then. And before you say anything else, I want to clarify that I did protest. I tried to force them to let me stay. But you know mom and dad, once they settle on one thing that's final. They don't change it for others. They don't care about about others, and I'm definitely no exception."

"Well I agree on you with that one."

" You came here, now you will finish this plate and then get up." Says Lee Yoonsang, Anton's father.

"No sir seriously. I'm very full. I don't think I can-"

"You can finish it, I believe in you. Now eat up."

I look at Anton, signaling for help the the only thing he did was wish me luck as I glare at him, annoyed.

"Choyeon, can I ask you something?" Asks Shim Hyejin, Anton's mother.

"Please."

"Did you two..have your first kiss yet?"

"Oh...us... we-" before I could finish, someone else started speaking for me.

"Yes mom, we did." He said as he looked at me and smiled, his hand searching for mone under the table and giving it a squeeze when he found it and got a grip on it.

"Aww, that's so sweet. Me and Anton's dad here had it before we even started dating, and honestly, he was such a bad kisser. I just hope that it didn't pass onto my child. Did it?"

"No it's nothing like that" I giggled. "He's a pretty decent kisser."

"Well that's a relief "

"See mom, you really doubt me too much. I'm not as bad as dad."

"Oh please my kissing skills aren't as bad as your mom describes them."

"Trust me, they are."

"Why are we even talking about this now??" Anton's dad said, looking quite embarrassed.

The room filled with laughter, it was an amazing night, one of my best actually. But on top of everything, he was by my side. I had a shoulder to rely on. I had him.

A cloud of emotions started gathering over my head from this little, short lived memory, which I'm guessing was present pretty clearly in my voice.

"Are you...okay..?" He said, a little intimidated by the long silence and sudden coldness in the air.

"Yea... I'm good..."

"No you're not. You're crying. Aren't you?"

"Maybe I am. Why does it matter to you? Why should it matter to you?"

"Cause I care Choyeon. I fvcking care."

"No you don't. If you did you would've atleast kept in touch. Now what's your explanation for that? Did your parents take away your phone and erase my number from your memory? And don't even try to deny that you had my number memorized. I know you did."

"That....I did that because I was scared ok..."
"Scared of what? Ending my sufferings?"
"No it's just...I chickened out okay. I thought of calling you, or even texting but I was scared that you'd hate me...and I don't think I could stand that at time..."

"Well not apologizing didn't make me better. It just made me hate you more." My voice my as heavy as a stack of bricks, eyes threatening to burst out in tears any moment now.

"I didn't that.. and I'm so fvcking sorry for that.."

"Just know that..."

My voice got heavier before a tear slowly fell off my eyes, followed by two more, and then they just continuously kept falling.

"I miss you."

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