𝐑𝐞𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 ✧ 𝐀𝐧𝐭𝐨𝐧 𝐋𝐞𝐞

Chapter 11

I swear they sound the same
It's like they know my skin
Every word they say sounds just like him

"Y-you... what are you..." Before I could finish he cut me off.
"She wasn't flirting with him, he was. Didn't you way he was holding her hand?" Anton spoke.
"I- ugh let's go." The girl left as she dragged Leehan along with her leaving me and Anton alone in there.

"Another good outfit wasted...." I murmured before pulling off my white see through piece. But thankfully, the green top underneath it was still okay. But that wasn't the problem. The thing was that it was absolutely freezing over there.

And he seemed to have noticed that.

"Here." Before I knew it, I looked up and saw him taking off his coat and handing it to me, like the gentleman he was.

"I don't need this, just like I didn't need your help with the that..." I pushed his hand away.

Instead of replying he sighed. And then to my surprise, he then himself threw the coat on my shoulders, in a way that it wouldn't fall off.

"You hate me doesn't mean that hate yourself you know..."
"I don't hate myself, not for a bastard like you."
"So you're saying that you DO hate me?"

"Yes. And you don't seem to take that to heart." I scoff. "It's a good thing though, you do you and I do me." I say as I take off the coat, roll it into a circle and throw it back at him.

Without even looking him, I turn around to leave. But interrupted my actions my grabbing my wrist.

"Let go..." I said, looking up, still turned to the opposite direction as of him.

"Can we please talk for a bit?"

I turned around as I took a deep breath. "Ok then. What do you wanna talk about?"

"I just wanted to apologize..."

A harsh scoff escapes my mouth. "Apologize? Wake up Anton, it's been 2 years. 2 fvcking years."

"I'm sorry...I know I should've apologized earlier but-"

"But you didn't did you?"

"Will you let me finish for once??"

"And here you are, raising your voice ag-"

"I never meant to leave without telling, I never wanted to. It was my parent's decision okay?"

"Well you could've atleast kept contact, explained your reasons. But why didn't you do that? Was that also because of Mr. and Mrs. Lee?"

"I..."

"You wanted to cut contact, even if you didn't want to you were glad that you were away from me weren't you?"

"It's not like that I-"

"You what? Go on, I want to what you can actually think of to cover this."

"I just never got the strength okay? I wanted to but I felt ashamed, I felt guilty...."

"Don't you think that guilt would be reduced, even by just a bit if you actually told me instead of fvcking cutting contact?" I say with a sigh.

"I'm sorry..."

"That's like the millionth time you've said that today."

"Look, it's not fully my fault okay?"

"Then who's is it? Mine?" I scoff.
"Men..." I mutter under my breath.

"Can you ple-"

"Let's not go any further with this conversation okay? You go your way and I go mine. It should be pretty easy for since you have past experience."

"Hey... I'm actually really sorry... I don't blame anything on you... it's just that... ugh you know me, it takes me a long time to process shit like this... and I very often end up making the stupidest mistakes ever. But can we please just go back to where we were before all this happened?"
A sudden change in his demeanor was noticable as his voice shifted to a much softer and pleading one.

"As in a relationship?" Another scoff escapes my mouth. "Forget about now, do you really think we can ever go back to being 'us'? Cause if you do, boy oh boy you are so fvcking wrong."

"Can you atleast think about being just friends once again? A second chance? Please?"

"I- I just don't know if I can ever forgive you okay?" I said moments before I ran off.

His words, specially the sudden soft voice made me emotional, a side of me I didn't want to show easily. It proved me to be weak, something that I didn't want others to see in me.
Before long, a few years started rolling down my cheeks. I tried stopping them but to no avail.

And then, I just gave up. I cried, heavily as I stood outside of the mansion, a bit far from it, as I stood there knowing that there was no sign of people near me at that time.

"You're doing it again, you fvcking weakling." I murmured as I bent down, putting my body weight on my knees.

Soon enough, the grumbling in the sky got louder, wetting my surroundings as it did the same to me.

But I didn't mind. I infact, was somewhat relived. The rain. It was my comfort zone.

But a bit later, I started getting dizzy. Breathing problems started kicking in, my heart felt like it had stopped beating, before I slowly started loosing consciousness. Was I dying?

"Fuck."

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Sry for the late update my country kinda didn't have internet for the past five days and a lot of ppl were killed so yeah-

But they finally had a Convo(that went terribly wrong)

Don't judge me ok this is my first ff 🧍🏻‍♀️