𝐋𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄 || 𝐉𝐚𝐲𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐧

06 : 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐝 𝐢𝐧𝐧𝐨𝐜𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞

You know that I can't.

Show you me.

Give you me.

I can't show you a ruined part of myself,once again I put on a mask and go to see you.

But I still want you

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Bloomed in a garden of loneliness

a flower that resembles you.

I wanted to give it to you

The truth untold [BTS]

♫︎♫︎♫︎♫︎♫︎♫︎

Heeseung stood up afted examining Sunghoon's unconcsious body that laid on Jay's bed, his skin paler than usual, Jay showed no emotion but his eyes screamed everything he ever wanted to say that he held himself back from doing that.

The three boys stood behind looked at the said boy and Heeseung who sighed.

"He fainted because of extreme pain in his body and panic, in these conditions the brain doesn't know what else to do so it just shuts down for a while" Heeseung said to the three, Jay listened carefully to the older, "his body has a lot of bruises, I've aided them, but I know better than
anyone that they'll leave a mark"

"Will he be alright?" Jungkook questioned, getting a nod from the younger, Jay who watched Heeseung nod at that, felt a nerve calm down, why was he feeling like this when he was the one who got him in this state?

Flashback-

Jay sat in one of the chairs when he received a message, he unlocked his phone and opened Heeseung's contact seeing Sunghoon's confirmed reports, stating that he REALLY had amnesia but it was a temporary one, which meant, if he gets his memories back, He'll know everything that happened.

Flashback over-

"Lets all leave now and let him rest" Heeseung said as the other two opened the door but Jay was too busy staring at Sunghoon's unconcsious figure.

"Hey, lets go, I'm not leaving you here with him, you'd kill him" Jungkook pulled Jay, "I won't, y'all can leave, I'll be here with him"

The three looked at each other and then Jay, they thought he was determined and guilty so they decided to leave, "if you hurt him once more, I'll kill you"

Jay nods at Jungkook's warning as the three boys leave, when he hears the door shut he lets out a sigh of relief, his eyes again lingering over Sunghoon's pale, unconcsious, bruised body.

He took a little chair from the desk in his room and sat beside the bed, he hesitantly took Sunghoon's hand in his, gently caressing the back of his hand.

"I'm sorry" he says, his voice full of emotions for the first time in forever, "I'm terrible, I know what I did is unforgiveable, I've been hurt to the core Hoon" A tear drop rolled down his cheek as more tears made their way out.

"They killed my..brother as well" Jay doesn't even remember the last time he showed his vulnerable side to someone.

"I have no one left, I am a crazy bastard, just kill me when you wake up, but please forgive me, I miss the old times when We'd hang out, study together, we were inseperable" He gulps down his sobs trying to be quieter.

"I need you Hoon, you're the only one, i can mentally rely on, after my vengeance is over, I want to die from your hands" Jay felt his words getting stuck in his throat, he hid his face in Sunghoon's hand letting those long held, silent tears fall.

He stands up wipping the tears away, he leans forwards and places a peck on his forehead, he touches his hair with a smile, caressing them gently, feeling the soft locks touch his hand.

He caresses his cheek with his thumb and places a small peck there as well, he then turned to leave, deciding to sleep on the couch when he felt Sunghoon's hand grip his tightly.

He debates whether to just get his hand out of his grip and sleep on the couch or adjust here.

He then finally decides to sit there and sleep by his caressing his hand while he closed his eyes, drifting off in a slumber.

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𝐓𝐎 𝐁𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐔𝐄𝐃..

I know this was really short, shorter than what I usually update lol but please bear with me.

I used to write either late at night or early in the morning but now I have to sleep early, dw I'll update soon again.

Love ya<3