Stars In Her Eyes

Thirteen

It's been four days, I've barely left my bed. The only time I got up was either for food or the restroom. Other then that I've just been binge watching the entire Friends show and crying into Lucky a lot. Sabrina hasn't returned to our dorm once. Which isn't terrible. I wouldn't want her to see me crying over her while stuffing my face with potato chips.

She won't answer my calls or reply to my messages. Which also isn't too bad considering I need to get my mind off of her but still it hurts. It's like I don't exist to her anymore. Didn't it mean anything to her? It might have not been a long time but to me every moment meant something.

The pool day, the fashion show, looking at her childhood memories. It all keeps playing in my head like a slideshow. I enjoyed every second with her. Now I feel empty.

She has moved on, how has she moved on so quickly?

I want her to come back, to care.

Every little thing I hear in the hallway gives me hope. Somewhere deep down I'm hoping she'll just walk in through that door, making everything right.

I'm not sure I could forgive her just like that but at least we could talk about it.

There is still so much uncertainty left, so many questions, so many doubts. I just need answers, I need her back.

Somewhere deep down it even worries me that she seems to have disappeared. On the bright side I do have contact with one of her friends, Jace. He has texted me, unlike the rest of her friends he's actually very kind.

Sabrina needs me he texted, as if. I'm so done with her. What she needs is to open her eyes and get rid of Trent. Of course I still care about her but right now I need some space. Besides Jace is with her, for some reason that makes me feel like she's safe. He'll protect her I'm sure.

No you know what?! I'm gonna give her one last piece of my mind!

She's once again at the lake which I'll be passing on my way to mom anyway so I might as well go in for the kill.

On her insta story she has been posting about the lake none stop and yup there she is. Surrounded by her idiot friends and her idiot boyfriend or whatever he is supposed to be. Just seeing him make me want to punch him.

Sabrina notices me immediately and tries her hardest best to ignore me. My anger is already boiling up. She can't be serious.

"We need to talk",

more anger rushes through my veins as I drag Sabrina with me.

I'm so done with her, this behavior. I need answers and I want them now.

"Hey what are you doing psycho?! Let me go!",

she yells.

She did not just call me psycho, what is her problem?! How could she have done such a full tree-sixty?

"Why? So you can get screwed over by Trent again?!",

it pops out uncontrollably.

"Excuse me?!",

she seems both shocked and offended.

"What are you doing Sabrina?! Why are you acting this way?!",

my voice fills with emotions.

"I don't know what you're talking about?",

Sabrina plays dumb.

"Ouch sure you don't, you're pushing everything away like it never happened, like I never happened! Am I really that unimportant to you?",