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Seonghwa pov:

I wake up already half in little space. Great. I look around the room and Hongjoong has already gone, thank god. I look at the time and it's already 11am, I really want some food so I have to keep it together for just a little bit, then I can slip in peace. I get into some comfy clothes and make my way to the kitchen where I see Wooyoung cooking breakfast with Mingi sitting on the side watching him, giggling every so often. He sees me and gives a little wave. I smile back at him weakly, still slightly upset after last night, and make my way into the dining room to wait for the food. I sit and pull out my phone not paying attention to anyone, I'm not talking to anyone till I'm ready.

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Jongho pov:

I'm sitting talking to Yunho and Hongjoong at the dining table about last night while we wait for food. "If I'm being honest hyung's I think we need to talk to Seonghwa and actually find out what is going on." I say confidently. Yunho gives a nod, I know he's still worried too, especially now there's also something going on with Mingi. However, Joong just gives a blank stare, he shuffles uncomfortably in his seat like he knows something. "I don't think that's a good idea, we promised not to question him. He'll talk to us when he's ready." Hongjoong says sternly, looking me down. "Why though? He clearly is struggling more and more and we can't help if we don't know! Do you know something we don't Hongjoong?" I reply, now clearly frustrated. 

He goes to say something but is silenced when we all see Seonghwa walk in. He completely ignores us and just sits on his phone. I'm going to talk to everyone once we've eaten, I don't care what Hongjoong says. The rest of the members come in as Woo puts out our food. Hwa continues to ignore us all as we all chat lightly while we eat. Once we finished, Seonghwa left immediately not letting me even get to speak to him, so I decide to follow him. Before I can, Hongjoong grabs my arm. 

"Jongho don't you dare force him to talk to you," Our captain stares daggers into me, clearly annoyed. I stare back at him, and sigh, "Why don't you care about him? especially after what I said last night? He needs our help, even if he doesn't want it Hongjoong!" I'm getting frustrated now. "Hey, hey guys, what's going on here?" The rest of the table has been silent this whole time but Woo decides to speak up. "I think we need to talk to Seonghwa and find out what is wrong for real this time! But Hongjoong is stopping me! I've been worried all week, I can't just be worried about him forever!" I reply, Woo flinching slightly at my now pissed off tone. "AY CHOI JONGHO, CALM DOWN AND SIT" Hongjoong now shouts, taking control of the situation. I sit down and we all look at him. 

"Of course I care about Hwa, and I'm going to work on what you said last night. But pushing Hwa to his limits again, especially when he's on the edge again, It's not going to be good for him. I'm saying this now as your leader, leave Seonghwa be. Yes you can keep and eye on him, But do not question him, let him come to us." Hongjoong says strongly. I'm taken back by our leader's sternness. Everyone is nodding in agreement, even Yunho who originally agreed with me. I just sit. "Jongho? Do you understand?" Hongjoong looks at me directly. "Mhm, I understand." I whisper. Everyone begins to get up and carry on with their day, I decide to just chill on the sofa and I'll check on Seonghwa later, I need to at least make sure he's okay.

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Seonghwa pov:

After breakfast I go straight back to my room. I spoke to no one, I'm too close to the edge to even speak. I settle down and start to slip calmly, until I hear yelling at the dining table. I hear my name a few times. God I feel awful again, all of a sudden. There fighting about me. No I need to slip positively today.

I grab my airpods and put on my favorite movie to calm down... How to train your dragon! I plopped on my floor where I had prepared a fluffy blanket and obviously toothless. With my laptop in front of me I wrapped myself in another blanket and cuddled my plushie. "Wook Mr toofless!!! itsss uuuu!" I giggle, making him fly like he is on my screen. I finally feel at peace as I watch the dragons fly around on my screen, getting up and making toothless fly every so often to keep me active.

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I'm like half an hour into the second movie when I start to drift off. "Mmms, sooo eppyyyyy tooflesssss." I could hardly keep my eyes open so I just lay down, and cuddle with my plushie without thinking about who could walk in.

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Jongho pov:

It's around 5pm when I decide to go and check on Seonghwa. I've been chilling on the sofa for most of the day, firstly watching TV and now playing games with Yunho, Wooyoung, San and Mingi. I decide to go when woo gets up to start our dinner, slipping out of the living room, making the excuse of needing the toilet.

I walk down to his room and give a soft knock. "Seonghwa, Hyung?" I question. I get no response, so I push the door open slowly.  I'm met with a dimly lit room with a laptop light showing a sleeping Hwa on the floor snuggled into blankets cuddling what looks like a plushie. I stare confused. I've never seen him with plushies or in fluffy blankets.

I see him beginning to stir, so I slowly walk over to talk to him, as he opens his eyes and makes eye contact with me. His eyes immediately shift from a peaceful look to panicked. He shuffles in his place, quickly scanning around, like he's been court doing something bad...

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A/n!

Ahhhh seonghwa's secret is nearly out!! What is going to happen???

Sorry for all the angst guys! I promise there isn't much more and the will be more fluff after the next chapter!

Also...

THANK YOU FOR 200 READS!!!

I can't believe this is already at 200 reads, especially when it was only 100 like two days ago! So thank you so much!

I also saw I was added to some ateez fanfic lists so thank you!

Also one last thing...

How good did ateez do at the mawazine festival??? Like I'm so proud of them 🥹 they deserve the world !

And look how good they looked !!!

But missing wooyoung hours :( I loved how they still included him even if he couldn't be there 🥹

Anyways!!!

Remember you are loved and worthy of love<3

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

- Mel -