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Seonghwa pov:

I stir slightly as the morning sun comes through the curtains, I roll over and suddenly remember what happened yesterday, the last thing I remember is falling asleep in the bathroom at our interview. How did I even end up in my bed? How do I even explain my behaviour to the guys? What do I do now? My mind is going ten miles an hour with all the stuff that happened and what could happen if I tell the truth. I look up too the top bunk to see Hongjoong still sleeping. I get up as quietly as possible, get dressed and grab some essentials.

At least I'm feeling a bit better today even if I still have little space teetering on the edge. I grab my phone and look at the time as I quietly walk out of our room. Damn its already 9am, I just know at least one of the members is going to be up even though its our day off. I do I quick scan of the living room and see no one. I make a quick dash for the door, I need to have some alone time this morning to clear my head before I deal with all the questions. Luckily I make it out and I head straight to the nearest café to get a much needed coffee.

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I'm sitting on a bench as I look out at the Han river. Everything is so peaceful because its a Sunday. This is just what I needed, my brain starts to settle as I breathe in the cold, fresh air and sip my warm coffee. Suddenly I feel my phone start to vibrate in my pocket. I take it out to see who is calling...

*HONGJOONG is calling...*

I sigh. I'm not ready to deal with this, especially not over the phone, so I hit the decline button. I go to put it back in my pocket when it starts to vibrate again...

*JONGHO is calling...*

"Not him too," I whisper to myself letting out a large sigh. I will talk to them when I am ready, so I turn off my phone so I can think in peace. I really am not ready to tell them, I think. "I just won't," I say out loud, "I just won't tell them, it doesn't concern them so they don't need to know." I conclude to myself. I look out onto the river and continue to sip my coffee, letting out a breath I was holding in. I need to take alone time more often.

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Jongho pov:

I'm up early for our day off. I need to make sure Seonghwa is okay and we need to understand what is happening. I creep over to his shared room with Hongjoong and look in. They're both still asleep, so I make my way to the kitchen to make some coffee. As I stand there taking in the Sunday morning sunrise I hear the front door in the distance. I dash back over too my hyungs room to see that Hwa is gone. "Fuck.." I say under my breath, I knew he'd leave if he had the chance.

I immediately wake Hongjoong up, he whines as I shake him, not wanting to wake up early on our day off. "HYUNG PLEASE WAKE UP," I shout softly, "Hwa's gone" As he hears that he snaps awake. "WHAT DO YOU MEAN HWA'S GONE ?" he shouts a bit too loud voice filled with worry. As I go to explain Yunho and Yeosang walk in wondering what all the commotion is this early.

"What's going on guys?" Yunho and Yeosang both question at the same time. "Hwa's gone, and I don't know where. All I heard was the door when I was in the kitchen and before I could catch him he was off." I explain to them all. I see Joong get out of bed and grab his phone immediately to ring Seonghwa.

"He's declined it.." he whispers, just staring at his screen. "I'll try him," I say, everyone in the room looking with worried faces as I dial. It is short lived though. "He declined me too.." I say. We spend the next 10 minutes all trying to ring him, now all just going to voicemail. He definitely has turned of his phone. "I think we need to just wait for him to come home, maybe he just needs some alone time, alot has happened.." Yunho says. We all agree, even though we want to know what's happening.

We all go into the dining room where all the others are now sat with Woo making food because Hwa isn't here. "I thought I'd make us breakfast, I had a feeling Seonghwa wouldn't be here.." he says with a slight sadness in his tone. "Thank you woo, keep some to the side for when Hwa gets back too." Hongjoong says. We all sit and have light chatter, wondering when our oldest will arrive home.

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Seonghwa pov:

As I walk slowly back to the dorm I turn my phone back on. As I do, it is flooded with notifications.

*8 missed calls from Yeosang*
*2 voicemails from Yeosang*
*12 missed calls from Yunho*
*2 voicemail from Yunho*
*15 missed calls from Hongjoong*
*2 voicemails from Hongjoong*
*16 missed calls from Jongho*
*3 voicemails from Jongho*
*20 new messages*

Oh crap. I feel really bad now. They must really be worried. As I walk I decide to listen to some of the voicemails so I know what I could be walking into.

Yeosang
"Hwa hyung... Please come home, we're worried"

Aw, he's so cute..

Yunho
"please come home quickly! Were worried hyung"

I literally can hear how sad he is.. god..

Hongjoong
"Seonghwa, I know you think we're mad or upset but we're not. Please come home.."

Good to know they're not weirded out. I better head back. As I approach the building I finish off the voicemails, Jongho's being the last.

Jongho
"...hyung... I'm worried and I just want to make sure you're okay. Please come home soon. Please Hwa, baby..."

I freeze outside our building. Did I hear that right? Jongho just called me baby? I replay it again to make sure I heard it correctly... He did. He called me baby. My eyes go glossy. I can feel my little space rising again from just that singular pet name. Why did he say that.

I shake my head, walking into the builing, pushing all the thoughts away. I need to be big, I can't make anyone more suspicious. I take a deep breath and let out a long sigh before I enter back into the dorm. As I open the door and walk into the living room there are 7 faces staring at me. Oh here we go....

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A/n

Looks like seonghwa isn't going to tell the truth! The guys are so caring for there hyung though <3

I really enjoyed writing this chapter, I've had such a spark to write recently so look out for at least a new chapter every few days!

If anyone is reading, are you enjoying it? Who's your fave so far? Also how are you, I hope you're doing well <3

Remember you are loved and worthy of love<3

byeeeeee

- Mel -