Hold me- Newtmas

Chapter four

Jasi,

I can't believe it is almost the end of this story WHAHAHHAHAHA JUST JOKING THEY LITERALLY DON'T EVEN KNOW EACH OTHERS NAMES EHHEHE

I don't want to write long authors note so yeah love you all

THIS CHAPTER WILL BE VERY SHORT BIT IT'S CUTE SO YEAH

soo

Ladies, and gentlemen and if you don't take labels that cool too, enjoyyy

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'The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.' -Franklin D. Roosevelt

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"Shuck" Thomas muttered as he stared into the blonde boy's eyes, he was adorable and hot like the best mix ever the way his blonde hair fell perfectly in front of his chocolate brown eyes, they were so perfect but had a whole story to them. The blonde cleared his throat making Thomas snap out of his trance.

"Take a picture it will last longer" Newt laughed, Thomas admired the boy's accent it was very British and matched his face perfectly "Stop staring it's creepy"

"Sorry yeah" Thomas mumbled Newt noticed a pink blush form along to boy's face "Here's your books, good choice" Thomas handed Newt his books he noticed one and read the cover "If Only I Had Told Her"

"You've read it?" Newt questioned

"I'm pretty sure I've read every book in the library" Thomas and Newt stood awkwardly in the crapped library aisle "I'm Thomas, Thomas Edison, and you are?"

"Newt, Newt Isaac, It's nice to meet you Thomas Edison"

"The pleasure is all mine Newt Isaac" The brunette words made the blonde smile butterflies filled his stomach. Newt Hadn't felt this way in a while a feeling where he wanted to keep talking to somebody, he wanted to get to know Thomas for them to be friends. "I see what you mean, staring is creepy"

Newt blushed at his words and hid his smile.

"Now that we have both had our moments of staring a blushing I think it's time you pay for your books" Thomas suggested leading Newt to a counter walking around and scanning Newt's books.

"You work here?"Newt questioned

"No I'm just scanning a random person's books and asking them for their money" Thomas commented as he smirked. Newt's stomach was again filled with butterflies he loved and hated the feeling at the same time. "Well thank you, Newt Isaac, and I hope you see you around who knows maybe you'll visit here again sometime" Thomas asks a tone of hopefulness in his voice.

"Wouldn't miss the chance?" Newts says grabbing the receipt and walking out of the store turning around the catch one more glance of the brunette, only to find out he was already looking.

Newt turned the receipt only to find a message says 'My heart going crazy but you can't tell' with a smiley face next to it. Newt smiled sliding the note into his book. Lizzy and May were waiting for him outside a clothes store hands filled with bags overflowing with stuff. Lizzy saw Newt and tried the wave but the weight of the bags holding her arms down.

"What makes you so happy?"Lizzy asked her brother who glanced at her and immediately looked away "IT'S A BOY!!" Lizzy screamed causing the attention of a few passing people.

"Shut up and no it's not" Lizzy raised an eyebrow at him seeing straight through his lies, "Fine it is but I just met him, he works in a bookstore around here and his name is Thomas and he's super nice and flirty, he's just... I don't know...." Newt rambled

"Newt I didn't know you were gay your mother never said anything" May smiled "But don't worry I support you no matter what"

"Thank you May it really mean a lot" Newt responded happy that he felt accepted

"Now it almost going to be dark and I want to start dinner soon, so let's head home and you guys can unpack" May guided the siblings through the door to the car filling seats with the excessive amount of bags.

"How much stuff did you guys get?"Newt asked

"Clothes, makeup everything we saw that we liked, don't worry we got some stuff for you" Lizzy smiled handing her brother a bag that was filled with clothing.

"Thanks"

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Once Lizzy and Newt got home they entered their rooms. Newt started folding up the New clothes he got and cleared a space on his desk for drawings and books. He sat down on the grey chair going over the drawings he had done in the past. One was of his mum and dad on the day of their wedding, Newt had found the photo and decided to draw it remembering how proud they were of him when he should them.

The thoughts of his parents made his brown eyes blur with tears and his lips trembled tears slipping down his pale face and falling onto his notebook the shading disappearing when the water hit it. Newt hadn't felt this way for ages a feeling that he was alone, he was. A feeling that nobody cared, nobody did. He wanted to hold his mum one more time for her to tell him that everything would be okay and there was no reason to be scared. For him to wake up in the night crying from a nightmare and have his parents hold him as his dad makes small jokes and his mum runs her warm hand through its messy hair. He would never have that again and even though he knew that the reality always came creeping back.

These thoughts spiralled in his head until the boy couldn't take it any more grabbing the paper that was splattered with tears with his shaking hands and ripping it. The sound of paper tearing fills the room, just like how Newt was torn from his parents, Newt throws the paper into the bin and walks to the bathroom and the echo of the boy's cries fills the confined space. Opening the bottom drawer Newt pulled out a blue razor its silver blade shining in the bathroom light.

Newt held the blade up to his skin slowly dragging it drawing holding his head back and tears spilled out his eyes. Blood formed along his smooth skin and it dripped onto the black floor spreading out into a very small puddle. He cried until he couldn't cry anymore until his head felt heavy and his body felt empty.

Cleaning up the mess newt bandaged up his arm stopping the blood and pulled on a black hoodie. He stared at himself in the mirror eyes red and puffy and cheeks shiny from tears. His parents loved him. But they were gone and it hurt more than ever.

It should have been him

Newt lay on his bed shutting his eyes trying to let sleep take over him. Finally, it did.

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I know this is sad I get it but things like this happen in real life and please talk to somebody about it, I now from personal experience it helps a lot

PLEASE leave any suggestions you have for this story (and for this chapter) cause I need some advice on how to improve it

That is all I have to say and sorry for this chapter bring short xxx,

Jasi :)(