ᴘᴏꜱꜱᴇꜱꜱɪᴠᴇ, ᴏʙꜱᴇꜱꜱɪᴠᴇ (𝘴𝘢𝘪𝘬𝘪 𝘬𝘶𝘴𝘶𝘰)

𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘰?

Ḧ̵̨̜̙̱͇̘́͜ͅE̴̩̹̘̜̻̠̟̋̇̌͑̐̽̚L̵̡̬͓̥̗̩̙̱͓̣̀̚L̶͎̬̣̰͉̙͓̗̳̒̒Ȍ̶̻̖͙͕͙͉̪̀̄͛͂̂͌̅͘͝ͅ?̴̰̖̺̗̞͕̙̥͇̦̀̍̃͛̐

¿O˥˥ƎH

hello?

can you hear me?

if this works... i'd like to say:

hey there. 

if you're even there.

i'm... sorry.

i didn't know it could get so out of control.

i know how hard it is for you. 

i know it'll get harder.

but please, push through.

you can do it. 

i know it seems like you'll never belong ever again,

or that you'll ever find someone to belong to ever again,

someone that isn't him,

but don't feel pressured.

please.

do you feel controlled by him?

that's okay.

pull your own strings.

it seems like it'll never be,

but you will get the chance to.

i promise.

and that,

one day, 

it'll go back to normal.

and if not, well, 

at least it'll be over.

you'll have been freed.

but don't think about that yet.

you have so much left to go.

so,

so,

so much.

but for the meantime,

enjoy it while it lasts.

enjoy the feeling of security.

the feeling of trust.

infatuation.

but don't forget this.

don't forget who you are,

that isn't his.

don't forget that you're your own person,

not just a subject to him.

this is goodbye.

i don't know if it'll be our last.

maybe.

we won't ever see each other.

only in dreams.

you aren't supposed to see your future self, after all.