Sanctioned Avenue

Chapter 25

Last Night

Lucianne's POV:

"H-hey Ci. What...happened last night?" HA?! HAHAHAHA! Wait...teka....HAHAHAHAHHAH! I cannot help but to laugh in my mind together with the voices, imaginations, and delusions that were always listening to my every thoughts in my head at kung minsan nga ay sinasabayan pa ang mga trip ko.

As much as I want to laugh so badly, I just turned to her with nothing but lifeless expression all over my face.

I badly want to laugh in disbelief but my face says otherwise.

Ito na 'yung natatawang expression ko. 'Yung expression na tatawanan ka dahil sa ginawa mong katangahan.

HAHAHAHAHA IS SHE SERIOUSLY ASKING ME THAT?! SINO BA ANG NASA BAR KAGABI?! AKO BA? POTEK NA 'YAN! Pinipigilan ko na nga lang ang magmura pero potek na 'yan, fuchsia.

I cannot say these infront of her face, I don't want to backstab her in my head but my other personalities says otherwise. Hindi ko na sila mapipigilan sa kung anumang iisipin nila tungkol kay Aimiesyl pero at the end of they day, I will always undertsand her and these voices and thoughts in my head will be easily dissolve and forgotten immediately.

Well, yeahh, basically, I was there pero hindi niya naman alam eh. So bakit ako ang tinatanong niya? Akala niya ba alam ko lahat ng bawat galaw niya?! PWES HINDI! NO!

My eyes directly staring at her blankly, not opening my mouth and even a single gasp of air cannot enter my mouth because of how tightly they were enclosed.

I should be the one asking that to her. Sila ang nasa bar kagabi 'di ba? Habang ako rito, inaamag na sa mansyon. I should be the one asking how was the celebration without the main celebrant?

What is the feeling na makalabas at makapunta sa bar without having traumas going around your system the moment you breathe the air of the bar? Leche flang past kasi 'yan. Piskat oy!

Pero anyways, let's just understand them. Yes, tama tama.

Magkaiba ang understanding, visions, and perspective natin sa kanila. We should always hear both sides of the story, sa side ng story ko alam ko na, pero sa side ba niya, alam ko na? That's why we shouldn't take actions without knowing both sides of the story.

Malay ko bang sa paningin, pag-iisip, at pagkakaintindi niya ay nakamasid lang ako sa kanila?

I can feel my own eyes piercing through her soul by the way she stares back at me. My eyes digging through her. Seeing through her. My eyes screams nothing but lifeless and emotionless feeling.

I can see her eyes becoming conscious as time went by just me staring at her.

I'm sorry Cyl but I cannot voice out my thoughts. Not when my other personalities are attacking you in my head right now, I couldn't form any sentence right now because my mind is a mess right now. As much as I want to voice out my feelings and what happend last night, I can't, 'yung mga ibang version sa kaloob looban ko pinipigilan akong ivoice out kung anong nangyari kagabi.

Natutop lang ang aking bibig at kahit ang aking mga mata ay hindi man lang maibigay at maikuwento kung ano ang nangyari kagabi.

You have to find out yourself. It may be hard pero at least meron ka namang matututunan diyan. You can learn to always find out what you want to find out yourself without asking others kahit pa kaharap at sobrang lapit mo lang sa taong magbibigay sa 'yo ng mga kasagutan. 

sobrang lapit mo na pero lumayo ka pa sa kasagutan dahil hindi mo mahahanap ang sagot sa mismo mong tanong kung ang mismong taong may sagot ay ayaw ring magsalita.