Somewhere, Someday

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<A/N at end beauties.>

Songs for this chapter:

I'm Not The Only One- Sam Smith

Love The Way You Lie- Eminem ft. Rihanna

Love Will Remember- Selena Gomez (Gosh this song is so emotional)

Happily- One Direction

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"I only told her when it didn't matter, and now it never will."

Harry's P.O.V

She looks so unaffected and concentrated. She looks so damn beautiful. Sarah doesn't even let what Josh did stop her from concentrating. Of course I wasn't even paying attention to Professor Hardy's lecture, because I was too hung up.

If I could beat the shit out of Josh, I would do it in a second. But I'd be the one ending up in the headmaster's office with all this unwanted trouble. I was definitely going to talk to Josh later, and let him know that he's a fucking bastard.

The bell rings and I rush straight out of this class. "Mr. Styles, wait right there." I walked over to Hardy's desk and mentally curse him out for stopping my departure. "Did you happen to even get the tonight's assignment? You seemed to be preoccupied with a certain lady in the first row." Damn it maybe I shouldn't have stared at Sarah the whole class.

"I've got the assignment. Can I go now?" Hardy nods his head and I finally walk out. I was looking for Sarah, but she was already gone. I wonder if Josh is walking her to her next class, since he's so persistent. If he doesn't love her than why the fuck is he doing all of this?

I love her and I will never get any fucking credit for it. Clair tried to help me out and hear me out, but nothing happened. Nothing changed and that was all my fault. I told her I loved her when it didn't matter. When it looked like I was only being a jealous dick. Now it never will matter again that I said these things to her. Everything is screwed up, and I know Josh will never let her go.

Sarah: Where did you run off too? Are you with that prick named Josh?

I hit send but I instantly regret it. I feel I like a clingy little rat. What the fuck was happening to me? Maybe Macy was right, I am getting soft.

I wait a couple of minutes to see if she answers, but she doesn't. I wish it was me walking her to class, and holding her in her sleep. She knows I could protect her more than anyone else. She knows I could make her the happiest girl alive, but she neglects it.

It drives me crazy though, and than I start getting angry at her and saying things I don't mean. Than I drive her further away and into a cheating man's arms. Why would she rather be with him than me?

I can't wrap my mind around anything anymore. I'm getting so fucking frustrated, and distraught. I haven't had sex in weeks and I can't take it anymore. I need someone and it's not like it would matter anyways. I could fuck whoever I want and it wouldn't matter. We aren't together, and we probably never will.

I dial Macy's number and wait for her to pick up. I needed relief right fucking now.

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I laugh at the text that Harry sent me. He never ceased to make me smile, and in times like this I was thankful for him. Sadly I was with Josh because he wanted to walk me to class. I thought I had made it clear before I left for literature, but I guess Josh didn't get that.

"What are you laughing at? Your laugh is so beautiful you know." I roll my eyes at Josh. He has been complimenting me all day, thinking that I'll forgive him. He still doesn't know that I know, and it's killing me.