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How The Time Flys By

So, it's been a while hasn't it? Gee, when was the last time I updated on this?

I just wanted to say that, I think, my journey can officially end here. I'm not on edge anymore, I don't feel depressed or want to hurt myself. No more pain, no hallucinations, nothing.

I'm grateful. For all of you who kept pushing me ahead. I really just, cannot thank you all enough. I have no words to describe how thankful I am.

I know I used to believe I was a disgusting, piece of trash. And I still am, in the fandom way though.

What I'm trying to say is, I know. I'm a beautiful and unique person, I have potential and a life far ahead of me. And I'm prepared for all the shit at that road.

I can now officially say that, I'm free.

Yet, there are still people out there who need our help. Yes, not just mine, but you too. There are kids, teenagers, adults, who are believing that they're worth nothing, who think they're useless and that they're suffering.

I will fucking say every time that you are not fucking alone.

You are worth alive, there are people out there who care about you. You might be oblivious to see that, or those people haven't reached out to you yet. You're not useless, you have value in this world. Some know your strengths and weaknesses, and might be willing to use that against you. Suffering or not, don't let them get you.

Don't let the words carve into your skin, push them back and let them know how strong you are. Don't let the pain sink in, drown them out and force your way through. Don't hurt or kill yourself, there are people in the world who would miss you so much that they might even kill themselves for you.

Don't become me. Don't let the hands grab you back and keep you down, don't do anything that will make you even slightly sad.

Do all the happy things in life. Go have fun, be with friends who you know that accept you and fight back against those who don't accept. Prove to your family, whether they be bad or not, that you're still alive and you want to be.

Dream big or small, let others know you're still alive.

There will be times where people will be assholes and try to hit you down, hard. And sometimes, that strength will loosen and it will hurt you. But it shows that you've grown as a person, you as a person know that you'll get stronger every fight.

You have potential, you're still growing, don't let others get to you. People will put you down, but it goes to show how you're stronger and better than them. Push yourself towards the light at the end of the tunnel, and never stop.

You, right now, are alive. Keep it that way.

Let people know that you're hurting, or if you're suffering. You have people around you who most definitely give a shit about you. Don't deny it, there is someone; a parent, friend or even a teacher. If you let someone know what's going on, they hold everything in their life back and will do everything to help.

People need to know that you're alive and growing. Never let the dead ones pull you down with them. People who surround you love you for who you are, not for what you think.

Go ahead and think you're ugly, alone and worthless. Me, along with a million other human beings will fucking prove you wrong.

You, listen to me right this second.

You are beautiful and unique in every way possible. It doesn't matter whether you have burns, cuts or scars, they're on your body, which means they're beautiful as well. You are alive, you have potential and a full life ahead of you. You will meet someone who will love you for who you are, not your looks or anything else.

You might become involved in a serious relationship, so much that you want to get married and have kids. Go for it, go for anything you want to achieve.

Believe it or not, there are people around you who do care and will do everything in their power to love and support you.

You know what's beautiful? Read the first word again.

You.
You are.

Never let anyone else tell you otherwise.