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Sorry

I'm sorry, I forgot you matter more than me.

I truly shouldn't have done what I wanted to.

After all, you matter more than me.

Sometimes, I wonder what makes some people think I should prioritize their wellness over mine.

I really shouldn't have done what I wanted to, for that I'm sorry.

And when I do, I have to apologize.
After all, I don't have the right to enjoy my time the way I want to.

So yeah, you know how I should live my life better than I do, teach me!

Ditch what makes me happy because you don't enjoy it?
Gladly!
After all, you matter more than me.

So you know that I'm not happy because I'm not doing what you find to be gladdening, for that I'm sorry!

And I should just sit there, next to you and watch you enjoy your time, because of course I enjoy getting bored with you!

Simply impossible!
Of course I love chatting about nothing!
Now, tell me about that one kid, whom I don't know, because I'm so invested in other people's lives!

And sometimes, I just don't want to listen, because I have no taste in conversations!
For that I'm sorry!

Look, I'm sorry.
I shouldn't have thought about myself!
You know what I should do better!
I'm sorry for thinking otherwise!
Obviously I enjoy the company of those who don't even care about getting my name right, because that's what others enjoy, right?
Company!

And yeah, I'm mentally ill, because I'm different!

And I'm sorry for being this way!

I don't think you found the 666 on my head as a baby, so what's the chitchat about?

I simply don't understand the purpose of my existence!

And I've got no right to explore, because everyone else knows the answer!
It's happiness!
Which, of course, means partying!
It's an objective meaning, anyone who disagrees is mentally ill!

Like me.

And yeah, you know what?
I am mentally ill.
So leave me alone.

You are so sure I'm who you think I am!
And of course you're right!

Obviously, when you're bored, it's my duty to entertain you by listening to your interesting stories of the past!
After all, I'm not a human of my own!
I'm your personal assistant!

Sure!
Go ahead and make jokes about how I'm a nerd in front of everyone!
After all, I live to be turned into a stereotype!

How did you know that the reason I was crying, when I returned home after almost fainting away, because of overheating and being unable to breathe and having to gasp for air is because I'm going to miss school!