Naisho, The secrecy villain [Villain Deku AU]

Chapter 10 - Calm down..

[Words in ^..^ are thoughts. The italic and bold writing settings dont work on either of the devices i write on soo.. also story has gone array again, but it will make sense sooner or later.]

*Izuku POV*

I wiped my eyes, sniffing. I hadn't believed that Sakura had died until I saw her body almost a month later. It was lying on a table, wires hooked up to it, a heart monitor blank in the corner of the room. I had screamed until they covered up the body, willing it to be a lie. It wasn't. She was dead. My older sister had died because the heroes put her on a task that they knew isn't good for her.

^They knew she was close combat. They knew she would likely be hurt being sent into a open field. They didn't care. They watched it happen. They heard it happen. They stood back. They put her in a hole. They left her to rot. They.. they were the reason she died..^

???: "...Izuku..."

^They let her die..^

???: "...Izu-kun?"

^They let her die..^

???: "Whats happening? Izuku?!.."

^They.. they let her die.. They.. They..^

I clutched at my shirt. I couldnt breathe. Tears slid down my face. My head pounded along with my heart.

^It hurts.. It hurts so much..^

I pulled my knees up to my chest, resting my elbow on them as I pulled at my hair.

^Make it stop.. please make it stop..^

???: "...Izuku! Calm down!"

A sob escaped my throat and I clutched at my shirt tighter, willing the pain to stop.

^Is this what she felt, when she died. Am I gonna die to? Will I see her again? What about Touya.. and Kei.. and Himi and Shiggy. I don't want to leave them behind.^

Izuku: "Make it stop.. Make it stop please.. I don't want to die.."

My voice cracked, more sobs escaping. Tears were forming torrential rivers down my face now, soaking my shirt.

^I don't like this. It hurts. It hurt so much.. I don't like it..^

???: "..we need to calm him down!.. do?.."

Everyone's words were muffled, blending together into one siren call. I opened my mouth in a silent scream, trying to make it all stop.

^Make it stop. Make it stop! Please! I beg you!^

I felt a hand on my shoulder. I shivered, scared at the sudden touch. A second later I was pulled into a hug. I stayed still for a minute, unsure of what to do, my head and chest still pounding.

^Are they my friend? Are they going to help me.. they are warm.. its nice being hugged..^

I rested my head in their neck, wrapping my arms around them. My tears soaked their top and I shook like a leaf.

???: "Shhh.. it's okay Izuku.. you're safe.."

I clung onto their top, trying to steady my breathing. It only got faster and faster..

???: "Shh.."

They put their hand on the back of my head, stroking my hair.

Izuku: "I- I want t- to go h- home.."

???: "I know.. I know do.."

I untensed, feeling relaxed by their words and touch. I squeezed my eyes shut, sniffing, my breathing steadying, my heart rate slowing. They moved their hand off my back, reaching under my legs and picking me up. I cradled against, hanging onto them like a Koala.

^They are nice.. I like this.. this feels like home..^