Naisho, The secrecy villain [Villain Deku AU]

Chapter 6 - I cant do it..

*Izuku POV*

"F[]CK! Why me! Why Why Why? !?"
I screamed and kicked my desk, some pens falling off the side of it.
"Why can't I f[]cking do it?! Why do I care about hurting him! I have killed so many  I can't.. I can't do it!"
A strangled cry came from my throat and I sank onto my bed, burying my face in my hands, dry sobs escaping my lips.
'I can't do it. I can't do it. I can't do it. I have to do it. I have to do it. I have to.. but i can't..'

"Hey.. kid are you okay..?"
A soft rapping at my door, echoed around the room. I wiped my face.
"Yeah. Just frustrated as I can't hack into the police system."
"Okay.."
I wasn't technically lying, I had been trying to hack the police system but every time I got into it they upgraded it.
"What do you want me to do about Forbidden.?"
I blinked, comprehending the question.
"Let him out of the basement."
"Why?"
I paused again.
"You that dumb. He will let down his guard and I can get information out of him as soon as he does."
"Oh.. right, yeah that's a good idea.. I'll be going now then."
Dabi moved away from my door. I groaned and slumped backwards on my bed. I had treated him like sh[]t, I regretted it. He was the one who helped out of that place and all..

************13 years prior************

"Mum! Don't leave me here! I don't want to leave! I'm sorry! I never meant to! Please don't leave me!"
She turned her back to me, grabbing a hold of Dad's hand, pulling him towards the door.
"Come on Hizashi. We need to go."
"Dad!? Please! I'm sorry! I didn't mean it! I promise!"
A hand grabbed my upper arm, pulling me into a different room. Dad opened his mouth, but mum pulled him out of the door opposite. I shouted for them to come back but they were gone..

"Shut up kid."
The person holding me tugged me, causing me to stumble. The door swung shut in front of me.
"Put this on."
They gave me a pair of black training trousers and a black training shirt as well as some shoes. I pulled them on, the person watching me the entire time.
"Hold out your arm."
I held out my left arm for them. They grabbed hold of it, raising my wrist to the ceiling. I felt a sharp jab as they pressed a needle to my skin. I yelped as they moved the needle across my wrist. After a minute they pulled the needle away and dropped my arm.
"That tattoo is your group. When you're symbol is called out you are to go to the area stated."
I nodded and looked down at my arm.

[AN: HELP! I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!! PLEASE SAY IF YOU HAVE IDEAS!! GOOGLE AINT HELPING ME 😭]

"You're code name with be Yurei."
"So.. ghost?"
"Yes."
"Okay.."
"Follow me and you will meet the rest of your group."
I trailed behind them, running my finger across the tattoo absent mindedly. It stung like hell but not as much as abandonment.
"This is your room."
They stopped infront of a room with the same symbol as the tattoo on my arm. Inside I saw a trio of children. They stood in a line, not moving at all.
"Get acquainted."
"Uhm.. I'm sorry but what should I call you?"
The person blinked at me.
"Call me Madam President."

AN: Hello! I want to thank @paulamarx12023 for giving me an idea on what to write. I'm sorry it took so long to actually do a proper update and that it is so short.. I was distracted with anoughter story I have been working on and I had difficulty deciding on what to do for this one. Love you all <3