Ouch: i'm still not over you

I just laughed

they said his name

again

and i just smiled

i laughed because

i'm not the girl who 

looks pretty with a tear-soaked face

i'm the girl who was cut

but

won't let anybody

see her blood

they said his name

again

and i died inside

i vomited in my mouth

my mind swirling and swirling and swirling

because he hurt me

and he was never coming back

and i just laughed.