Reaching You My Sunset (COMPLETED)

Chapter 34: Shared Kiss

MIKHA'S POV

I breathed a heavy sigh because of exhaustion. I've been looking for a decent job everywhere, but it seems like wala talagang tumatanggap sa'kin obviously dahil sa kagagawan ng lolo ko.

It's been two weeks since our sleepover, and after that, we've been busy kasi Christmas break na.

Usually, nag-eenjoy ako pag ganitong Christmas season kasi it's either tulog ako sa apartment ko or sa bahay namin, pero it's different now kasi tinakwil ba naman ako.

Grabe ang love ko kay Ate Aiah to the point I chose to kicked out by own family just for her.

Shet, martyr ang atake pero okay lang. I'm still hot pa rin kahit I fell in love with my best friend na may boyfriend na. Geng geng.

Napailing ako sa naiisip ko parang ang bad kong human being.

Hindi pa naman ako kapos masyado, pero I'm planning to have extra money for the coming exhibit sa France.

One week ako roon although sagot ng school ang expenses, but I'm planning to stay there for two weeks, kaya I need extra cash for my airplane ticket pabalik.

January 20 flight namin, one week before Aiah's birthday and one week before her parents are going to talk about the so-called fixed marriage arrangements, I know she will freak out or worse isumpa ako kahit hindi naman ako pumayag kaya iiwas muna ako sa topak n'ya.

It's only December 8 pa lang kaya I have a few days to make ipon pa.

My parents never contacted or reached out to me since the last meeting with my grandfather.

I don't care, gawa na lang silang bagong anak.

I frustratedly grabbed my hair and took a deep breath before starting my engine.

I decided to get back to my apartment na lang cause I know it's useless to look for work if may grandfather kang manipulative as fuck lingering around this city.

I focused my eyes on the road while there were so many thoughts running through my mind.

I feel exhausted lately, emotionally and physically. I don't know what to do anymore. I didn't know it was this hard to live independently, and there's no one to talk to.

Since Christmas break, hindi kami masyadong nag-uusap ng mga kaibigan ko.

They're busy kaya I don't bother na abalahin sila, especially Aiah.

She's the one I'm with when I'm feeling so much stress at need ng mapag-kwentuhan.

But how? bukod sa siya ang reason why I'm experiencing this right now, she's also busy with her so-called boyfriend.

Damn it! She's having a good time with her so-called boyfriend and I'm suffering because of her, for her happiness?

how unfair is that?

I asked myself and smiled bitterly.

I shook my thoughts off.

I don't want to blame her because it's my fault naman.

It's my fault that I care for her too much.

It's my fault that...........

I love her.......... too much.

There were only a few blocks left before my apartment when I spotted three cars parked outside, causing my forehead to crease in confusion.

Nong medyo makalapit na ako, nakita ko sila Jhoanna, Colet, at Gwen na busy kakalikot sa gate ko, so they didn't notice me.

Bumusina ako, causing them to jump in surprise at sabay-sabay napatingin sa'kin.