Paraylzed Love (BK 1)

Chapter 10

Nicole's POV

I rushed down the stairs not and saw Josh rush out slamming the door. Frustrated, I sat down on the steps and waited, just thinking. I could feel my eyes brimming with tears before I let them flow in a continuous stream down my face. I felt so hopeless, but most of all, I felt guilty. I was drunk and I shouldn't of done that. I should have listened to my instincts. I silently slapped myself in the face as I recalled the events from the previous night. But Josh should understand. I was drunk, people do stupid things when they are drunk. I'm pretty sure he did some things that night that I didn't know about. He was more sober than I was.

Regaining my composition, I stood up and went to the kitchen to make some breakfast. He had to come back after all. This is his house. I would wait for him. As I took some cereal out of the cabinet, I started forming a convincing apology in my head.

I waited on the couch watching tv for the next few hours and attempting to text him. He never replied and I found myself reaching for the frying pan to make dinner. I was really desperate now, I had texted him at least 5 times in the past ten minutes. Sighing and not really in the mood to cook, I put the pan back and took out some instant macaroni instead.

As soon as the microwave beeped, old memories came flooding back. I remembered the times when my parents took control of my life. When I would at most get one cooked meal a week. Sighing, I took out the macaroni and stared at it as if it would turn into some magnificent home cooked meal. It was miracle that I could even cook in the first place.

After eating, I went and took a shower before getting in bed. I heard the door open downstairs and I smiled, happy that he finally decided to come back. I contemplated my choices. Stay here or go down. I decided to stay here since I guess I was kinda mad at him. But I can't stay mad at him long. I closed my eyes and pretended to sleep as I heard him coming up the stairs. I heard him sigh as he walked into the bathroom to take a shower glancing over to me for a mere second before shaking his head and stepping into the bathroom.

I took a peek through my eyelids as he walked out and I almost gasped. I had always been amazed by his toned body. I could see his muscles flexing with every step he took and I smiled to myself. How can someone dislike this guy even for a little bit?

I heard him approach the bed and come sit near me. He observed me for a second as if he was checking to see if I was awake before taking a deep breath and pressing a soft kiss on my forehead. He whispered a "I love you," before taking my hand in his and tracing circles on it.

"Look I'm sorry babe. I know you were drunk and I just kinda freaked out. I'm really sorry. I have to admit, I maker some mistakes that night too. Well here it goes.. We were both drunk. You found a guy and I found a girl. My head was fogged up and the only reason I found you is because I was looking for a room for my girl. I'm so sorry. Forgive me? I know you probably won't hear any of this but I just wanted to let it all out. I almost feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Can't wait to retell it in the morning." he gave my hand a little squeeze before continuing. "And besides, I'm not mad at you. I couldn't stay mad at you for a minute if I wanted to. I really love you. I do. Your so beautiful and sweet. There's nothing else that I could possibly want. I love you." this time I reached up and wrapped my arms around his neck kissing him hungrily. I had missed this. I could tell that he was startled by this but kissed me back with just as my yearning that I did.

" I love you." I whispered.

"So, how much of that did you hear?"

"Oh, not a lot. Just all of it."

I saw his cheeks turn red before he grabbed my waist pulling me closer onto him. "Well it was all 100% true."

I grinned before closing the space between our lips again not caring that he was still partially wet. He sounded so genuine and adorable, I was so lucky.