Hidden shadows [Milex/mclennon]

Talk to me angel

For a second time Miles bangs on someone's front door but this time he's not looking for answers, just comfort. As the door opens he throwing himself at the strangers arms as he breaks down said stranger worriedly coax miles inside.

" Miles, love what's going on? What's wrong?"
Shaking his head refusing to let him go. Miles holds on for dear life.

"Just hold me Alex please.. I beg of you don't let me go. I need you so fuckin much right now." Nodding Alex guides him to the couch, rocking him back and forth. This so so confusing he thought he was out celebrating his concert,  this was the last thing he expected today at 2 AM. After his sobs die down. Alex asks " Love what happened? What has gotten you like this? Talk to me angel."

Shaking his head miles begins to kiss his neck tenderly murmuring " please not now just make love to me please I need you."

Sighing knowing how stubborn Miles can be Alex gives in picks miles up bridal style and leads them to his room.

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Waking up with cotton mouth and sore eyes wasn't something miles was used to, ok fine he's woken up completely hungover before but not the same thing.

seeing Alex's side of the bed empty made his heartache for some reason, needing his warmth right now more than ever he wrapped himself in the blanket and ventured out to the kitchen where he knows Alex is most likely drinking his cup of coffee.

Hearing barefooted footsteps Alex looks up and smiling tenderly " hey, how'd you sleep?"

"Good thanks." Ashamed of what he knows is coming he slowly takes a seat next to Alex. " so I guess you have questions."

Nodding Alex replies " Lots."

" Oh god where do I start, ummm well basically...ummm." Miles doesn't know why he can't find the right words, he knows what to say but maybe all the crying probably has fogged up his mind.

"Miles, love spit it out please! Maybe I can help but that's only if you let me in." Starts rubbing miles back in a comforting way.

Nodding with a weak smile " ummm where do I begin so you know how I had my concert last night" nodding Alex's eyes tell him to go on. "Well after the concert someone came in my dressing room to talk to me."

"Who?"

"Paul McCartney came into my dressing wanting to talk to me."

" Miles are you kidding me! That's amazing I know he's been such an inspiration for both of us but wow but I don't understand why are you upset? Did he not like your show?"

Honestly after everything that happened having Paul McCartney insult his show wouldn't have been as painful as his confession.

"No actually he came into my dressing wanting to have a serious talk with me."

"About what? Music?"

Shaking his head miles replies, " Not quite, actually he came to tell me that he's my umm... my biological mother or father, I don't know the right term but he said that he gave birth to me."

Alex wasn't one to get surprised a lot because of that poker face he show cases but having his eyes bulging out of their sockets and dropping the coffee mug spilling coffee everywhere was amusing and worrying at the same time. " Alex love be careful you're going to burn yourself. Get up before it slides down to your lap." Gets up to get towels.

"Sorry umm wow sorry I was caught off guard." Gets up and helps miles clean the table in silence, it wasn't until they were both leaning their backs against the kitchen island that he chose to speak up, " The one time I get a blimey cold something happens, are you ok my love? I'm sorry I couldn't be there to comfort you at that moment." Embraces miles once again.

Miles Peter Kane has always been someone special to Alex, ever since they met he took a big chunk of Alex's heart and even when the arctic monkeys weren't performing he would still go and support The Little Flames every chance he could, be that groupie if you must say but for miles he would do anything so knowing he was alone even after receiving the news kills him.

" Miles love and do you believe he was telling the truth?" Being logical was always his forte.

Shrugging miles is not sure what to believe I mean his mom said that his dad got him from a drugged addict but again dad was always a compulsive liar. " I don't know when I went to talk to mom... I mean Pauline now I suppose."

"Love she'll always be your mother no matter how your birth mother is, she raised you and loved you so don't be like that. At the end of the day you are who you are because of her alright."

Feeling guilty for spitting venom on her name he nods, " you're right I'm sorry but the fact is I don't know what to believe, I obviously went to go see her demanding answers last night but she claims that when dad brought me to her he told her that a drug addicted gave me up to him desperate for drug money. But now this man comes claiming to be the one who birthed me. What do I do? What's next?" Flops down to the floor still naked and wrapped in the cocoon of a blanket.

"Well I think first things first go home and apologize to Pauline because yes she lied but to you your whole life but it wasn't to hurt you that she didn't care about you. It was too protective so you could live a normal life at the end of the day she will always be your mother, regardless of who gave birth to you, and after that, if you're up for it, I know you won't answers and I know you want to know exactly what happened to you the day you were born so the best thing to do now is fine Mr. Paul McCartney and demand of DNA test and then go from there."
 
Mesmerized by Alex ability to make sense of all this shamble that is his life, Alex is truly his rock, his other half he's grateful for him. Leaning into to kiss Alex me murmurs against his lips " I love you puppet."