Hidden shadows [Milex/mclennon]

I need my son

" So he didn't believe you?"

" No and I don't blame him who would believe a complete stranger claiming to be their birth mother. I just hope he lets me explain me self, I didn't want to patronize him in any longer. Once he ran into the toilet I had to give him space. I left my number for him on a napkin. I just hope he reaches out, I need my son Lin." A sob escapes Paul's mouth.

Sighing with sadness Linda pulls Paul into a comforting hug, being there for Paul is something she vowed to do ever since he came clean to her on their second date, he's been through so much so young...so much pain he endured that she felt this protectiveness soon after.

Being a photographer she had to show up to certain events and one was where the Beatles were going to be, they eventually bumped into each other and hit it off right away, of course she wanted to get to know him in a much deeper level but as soon as he confessed her everything she knew he was not the one. Over the years she has become one of his best friends especially after what happened with John he needed someone.

"Paul I know that this is hard and frustrating but give him time ok, this is not something to take lightly. He just found out something very serious, I don't know if he knew he was adopted but if he didn't then he needs to assimilate it and talk to his parents about it ok." She can't even imagine how miles is feeling but she does know what Paul feeling, she's seen the go lucky cute Beatle everyone all knows and loves but in a personal level all she sees is an emotionally scarred man who hides behind a façade.

" You should have seen him lin, he's beautiful and so talented, so passionate about music. I'm so proud of him I guess music does run in our blood." Paul chuckles, having both musicians as parents he's not surprised his son has the same gift.

" did you take any pictures by any go chance?"

Nodding Paul takes out his phone, he was just so star struck that he almost forgot to take pictures but managed one. During a guitar solo is where he managed to take one and he looked so concentrated on what he was doing, Paul's so proud.

Gasping Linda yanked the phone out of Paul's hands " Oh my god Paul he looks so much like you. He's so handsome." "Isn't he, that's my baby boy." "I'm so happy for you Paul, you finally found the missing part of you. Have faith that he'll come around ok, just be patient."

Nodding Paul reaches for his phone. " Can I tell you something Lin? Ever since Mike confessed to me what my father... I mean Jim did.  I can't help but think he never really did love me. I was always an embarrassment to him, never was the smartest in class, focused too much on my music than in my school work, and finally the final icing on the 2 layer crap cake was coming out gay at 14 and getting pregnant at 15. Looking back now I can't help to think maybe everything that happened after was some kind of punishment bestowed on me by god for falling in love with a boy, who I thought was the love of my life, my soulmate but look at us now. Haven't spoken since the Beatles went to shit, maybe I deserved everything that happened to me."

Lind can't believe what she's hearing, upset that he would even think such a beautiful soul like his deserved this that she grabbed his face and made him look her in the eyes, " Paul you better take that back. You are the most amazing human being out there how could you even think that? Nothing of what happened was your fault or not for one second think that you deserved it ok! I think they are just tests that life put us through and we have to figure out a way to survive, so hear me now. YOU WILL GET YOUR SON BACK AND EVERYTHING WILL FALL INTO PLACE.  Have faith Paul, ok."

Nodding Paul gives her a weak smile.
" I guess now all I can do is wait right?"

"Yes that's what's best Paul, let him absorb this information and then we'll go from there."