Still My Mate

5

Asher*

Anger.

All I feel is anger after hearing what she asked for.

Why ?

Why would she want to leave here.

You know why Arch responded annoyed

Ever since rejecting Layla we have not been on the best speaking terms. Since she never accepted my rejection well more like me not giving her the chance to accept it Arch and I can feel her pain eveyday a dull pain lingers in my stomach region and the depression we put her in.

I can't have her as a mate. I don't want a mate. I saw what losing a mate did to my father I would never want to go through that, of course he hides it well from our people but not from me.

Every night the drinking gets worse his body being forced to shut off so he can't feel the pain my mother experienced right before her death. Being brutally murdered by a pack of rogues that made their way into our territory. 

If I am to be Alpha I will not be weak. A mate is evey Alphas weakness. I am powerful and already feared by other packs I don't need a mate to hold me back on being what I was made to be.

I need a Luna that is strong that can have a fighting chance. Sadly my mother was no warrior she was kind and soft spoken just like Layla but Kailey she's from generations of top warriors she can be powerful and protect the pack. Plus if anything were to happen to her it wouldn't hurt as bad as losing my mate.

But here I am. Losing her. As far as everyone knows her mate rejected her and she's moving away from him. From me. I'm the reason she's leaving. I'm the reason she's hurting so bad but then I'm not doing anything to fix it either

You could Arch growled at me

No I can't and I won't I sighed rubbing my temples. When did life get so complicated.

I need to go for a run and blow off some of this steam. Taking wolf form I take off in the wood around the pack territory running for what felt like hours finally breaking and laying on top of a hill a feel a wolfs presence appear to the right of me

"Care for company?" She gave me a wolfy smile trotting up to me

"Kailey are you following me" I chuckle as arch annoyed by her being here disappears deep into my self conscious

"Well yes but no " she nuzzles up to me

I love kailey I do but nothing like how I feel towards Layla the sparks that I get from her are pure magic and my skin burns to feel her touch and her lips on mine again.

"You know I did come up here to be alone. But I'm glad I have someone to sit with"

"I'm always going to be here for you Ashy. Your my Alpha and I'm your Luna we are one"

Sighing I stand up on all fours

"Let's head back it's getting late"

"She's your mate isn't she ?" She growls lowly

"Yes. Layla is my mate"

"So what does this mean" she whimpered "for us"

"Nothing you are the one i chose"

With that I walk off not caring if she followed me or not.

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Days had passed and I could feel Arch grow irritable with our mate not in Blood Moon anymore even I couldn't do something without blowing up at someone.