Break the ice

Chapter 23: the end - you look so cute right now

Estelle's POV

There I said it.

Relief flows through my body after the words left my mouth.

It took every tiny bit of courage in me to finally confront Huxley. After I made the stupid choice to let everything that we had built fall down, I knew I would regret it. And I did. I can't believe I am actually in Mountainview standing outside of the Green Ivy's training hall confessing my feelings for Huxley.

Αnd it seems like Huxley can't believe it either. He's standing only arms length away from me giving me a confused look. His brown eyes are studying me from head to toe as if he's questioning if he's still dreaming.

To me it's very endearing how innocent he looks right now. Over the past months we've been building our relationship and let it develop into something comfortable and sweet despite our rough beginning. I've seen many layers of Huxley, but I'm sure that there are more to explore and I really want a chance to do so. Seeing his sweet and caring side made my curiosity grow. And the more we worked together and spent time alone the more I started to feel for him.

For someone with such a cold appearance he sure made me feel warm inside. The way he listened to me pouring my heart out about my concerns for my little sister made me realise just how much of a good guy he actually is. And I was a fool for letting him go. Sure, I thought I did what was best for the both of us, but sometimes rational thinking is not the way to go. I learnt that the hard way. A month without Huxley has passed and I felt that there was something missing in my life.

Our bike rides to work, our banter, his goodnight texts, watching his Friday games and randomly going out for lunch. All these little things that became part of my weekly routine disappeared from my life. I've never in my life thought I'd be so hung up over a person but here we are. Silly me thinking I'd never fall in love this badly.

I've got many things going for me. Thanks to my chaotic mind college takes up a lot of space in my head, but spending time with my friends is also an important part that makes my day fuller and better. And then there is work. Now add a boyfriend in the mix, how would I even manage all of that? Especially a long distance boyfriend, if Huxley even wants to talk to me.

Oh right, I'm standing in front of him.

Huxley clears his throat and it looks like he's planning on saying something. But he's debating whether or not he should. And it's kind of starting to bother me. Making me feel nervous.

It was a long shot, coming all the way to Mountainview trying to get back with Huxley. But I had to try, that's what I keep on telling myself. No more being a coward and running away from my feelings, this time I'm facing them head on.

I look at Huxley, my eyes are wandering around not wanting to look into his eyes. I scan his lips, his nose, his broad shoulders and well defined chest. Enough to look at but I seem to lose this battle and look him straight in the eyes when he starts to speak.

Huxley comes closer to me. His lips are slightly parted and his cheeks are red. Probably from training. His brows furrow but his face relaxes when he gets himself together and starts to speak.

''Estelle.'' The way he says my name makes me weak in the knees. So gentle and sweet, like he was meant to say it.

Huxley smiles down at me and closes the distance between us. Before I know it I'm wrapped in his arms. The warm feeling of Huxley against me makes my body temperature rise. Thanks to his proximity I'm hit with a familiar scent of sandalwood. His head rests on mine and his arms are locking me in, making sure that I am not escaping.

''I've missed you.'' He mutters against me.

Butterflies erupt in my stomach after hearing the words leave his mouth.