ENDLESSLY YOURS | Jay Park

012 | it's your life, not theirs

Ryu Yeseul
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How should I ask my mother about moving in with Prince Heeseung? Will she accept or think it is too early? In the end, it doesn't matter what her answer is, I will still agree on it.

It's too early and I don't want to move from my mother yet. However, living with the royal family equals protection.

I have been walking around in a circle the whole morning, trying to find the best way to ask my question. I wanted to ask my mother yesterday but she was busy.

I know I'm overreacting and thinking too much. But I can't stop thinking about what will happen depending on the answers.

If I move in with the royal family, I will be protected, but Prince Heeseung's heart might not be. But if I don't move in, I might be at risk of dying. I assume that's why I need protection.

I walked downstairs to the store. My mother was standing by the front door waving goodbye to a customer.

"Did you have a reading?" I asked her.

"Yes, with Mrs Yang. Her oldest daughter is getting married soon and is worried about it," My mother answered.

"Speaking of that. There is something I have to talk to you about. It's about your friend," She added.

Jay?

"I don't think you should continue seeing him. You should actually watch out for him. He is not good for you. I can not explain why, but you have to trust me," She said.

I do trust her because I know she's right. However, the fact that she avoids giving me a reason or explanation makes me question her. Jay is the Prince of Hearts; there is a reason why I should stay away from him, but my mother chose to remain silent.

She knows about Prince of Hearts, and she definitely knows Jay is Prince of Hearts.

"Honestly, I would like to hear the reason why. You are never wrong with your gut feelings, but there must be a reason why you feel this way, right?" I replied.

"I can not explain right now. You have to wait," My mother said as she placed a hand on my shoulder.

I let out a sign. Unbelievable. I know I shouldn't be too mad at my mother. She must have a reason for keeping me waiting, but it's still making me mad. Her reason is probably not even gonna surprise me either, probably. I already know Jay is the Prince of Hearts, who is dangerous.

"How would you feel about me moving in with Prince Heeseung?" I suddenly asked.

"Already?" She asked back.

"I know, I also think it's early. But, Prince Heeseung has a busy schedule, and living together will make it easier for us to meet and for me to learn early about royal life. And most importantly, we will sleep in separate bedrooms," I answered.

"If that's what you want and it feels right for you, I accept it," My mother replied with a smile.

"But you have to promise me you are gonna help me with the store when Prince Heeseung is busy. You are not gonna get rid of me even when you move out," She added.

"I promise," I said with a smile.

She walked away, and my smile dropped soon after. A part of me hoped my mother would not allow me to move in with the royal family. I can lie and say she didn't, but I don't want to lie to Prince Heeseung. Him being in love with me is the only lie I want to deal with right now.

The bell rang, and as usual, Jay walked through the door. After hearing my mother's thoughts and feelings for Jay, I know I have to hide him before she sees him. I pushed him out and quickly closed the door behind me.

"My mother doesn't like you and doesn't want me to hang out with you. She probably knows you are Prince of Hearts and is worried about my safety," I explained.

"Your mother is wise and not wrong," Jay replied.

"Anyway, are you free tomorrow?" He asked afterwards.

"I am not doing a so-called day trip with you again. My mother and Prince Heeseung are gonna be mad if they find out I spend time with you," I answered.

"So what? It's your life, not theirs," Jay responded.

"Yes, but -"

"No," Jay interrupted.

Suddenly, my heart started to shake out of fear. Usually, when you are scared, your heart beats faster, but mine is beating slower. As if my heart is slowly dying. Jay is controlling my heart as a reminder of his power and not being able to make my own decisions.

"Remember. Your life will be more miserable if you don't keep me by your side," Jay said.

"Don't worry, I will never forget it," I replied.

"You better not," Jay responded before he walked away.