ENDLESSLY YOURS | Jay Park

007 | long-term solution

Ryu Yeseul
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It was not a simple and silly kiss Prince Heeseung and I shared. His life is in danger now because of me. His heart will be more vulnerable and easily damaged the more he falls for me. Love is not supposed to be painful.

The ability to change your past hasn't been appealing until this moment. I am willing to change my past for Prince Heeseung. Jay can mess up my life as much as he wants, but he has no right to involve Prince Heeseung who is completely innocent.

At this point, I don't care if my life is in danger. I did something wrong and therefore deserve all of this. Prince Heeseung however, what exactly has he done? Nothing.

My only solution is to run away, which is the worst solution. Running away is a short-term solution, it's not going to help me in the long term. And that is what I need.

I need a long-term solution where Prince Heeseung does not die of heartbreak. And that solution does not exist.

My mother knocked on the door while opening it. I sat on my bed while my mother sat on the edge of it.

"That's not the look you should have after spending the evening with the royal family. Did something happen?" My mother asked.

"No, don't worry, everything is fine. It's just a lot to take in," I answered.

I'm not lying. It is a lot to take in.

"I understand," My mother replied.

"The queen said she hoped I would be one of Prince Heeseung's favourites. Because I was one of her favourites. And it's all because you left such a good impression," I said with a smile.

"This is why you should listen to me more often," My mother replied and smiled back.

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My days usually pass by quickly. I like to keep myself busy so time flies by faster. Despite having things to do, it is not enough. I am easily distracted by every little sound, especially the ringing bell.

It feels like my heart is about to jump out of my chest as soon as I hear it. Whenever the sound goes off, I picture Jay or Prince Heeseung walking in. The question is, which one is the worst? Both remind me of choices I deeply regret and can't take back.

I should have known better than to kiss a stranger.

The ringing bell rang again. My heart skipped a beat, meaning one of my mistakes had entered the room. I turned around and spotted him, Jay, just like I suspected. Feeling your heart skip a beat is usually connected to a positive and romantic reaction. Mine, however, feels like death is around the corner.

"If you are here for drama, then you should leave. Prince Heeseung may not even come," I told him.

"And why wouldn't he? Sure, he has a busy schedule but that doesn't mean he can stay away from his great love," Jay replied while he walked up to me.

"I am curious about one thing. Why is the best way to protect me by using a curse on Prince Heeseung so he will fall in love with me?" I asked.

"Long story short. There is no answer. I just went with my gut feeling," Jay answered.

I started to walk away, hoping I would be left alone. Jay felt otherwise. He caught up with my speed and stood in front of me. I tried to sneak away but his reflections were faster than I expected.

"Listen, I understand that you are mad at me. But, believe it or not, your life will be more miserable if you don't keep me by your side," Jay said.

"Yes, I have caused a lot of misery already, but there has been a reason behind them to get you closer to the royal family. Your life will never be the same again, no matter which way you go. But there is one thing for sure: your life is at stake," He added.

Jay is doing a great job of convincing me to trust him. I can tell he has done this before. His words feel rehearsed as if he has said them before. I do want to stay with Prince Heeseung regardless. And I will get Jay in the bargain.

I thought Jay would leave me alone after I kissed Prince Heeseung. And now, it seems like only death can separate us. I know Jay is hiding information from me. He could be open and tell me everything, but he chose not to. Everyone has a reason to keep secrets, and I do not want to push Jay into telling me things despite my curiosity.

"Regardless of your choice of life direction, you will never be able to get rid of me. You are stuck with me forever, my gorgeous," Jay said with a smirk.

"In other words. No matter which way I go, you will always follow me?" I asked for clarity.

"Exactly," Jay answered, still smirking.