ENDLESSLY YOURS | Jay Park

011 | love is blind

Ryu Yeseul
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Since I got to know Prince Heeseung, I have only seen him with pity. Shame and pity were running through my vines along with my blood every time I looked or thought of him. Then, things started to change after our dinner at the castle.

I started getting to know Prince Heeseung more and liked being around him. The shame and pity still run through my veins, but not as much. Instead, it got replaced with fear of Prince Heeseung dying from a heartbreak, caused by me.

As Jay said, his heart is made of glass, and the more he falls for me, the thinner the glass will be. This made me wonder how I could cause the glass to get thinner. If Prince Heeseung and I kiss again, his heart may be at its tiniest after.

"What the matter? Is there something wrong? Should we remove the clematis to something else?" Prince Heeseung asked out of worry.

"No, there is nothing wrong with the clematis, they are beautiful. I just wonder how you are used to this place," I answered.

Prince Heeseung invited me over to give me a proper tour around the castle. He said it's better to start learning now, or he fears I will get lost if I walk around alone. To be fair, I probably would.

"It is odd actually," Prince Heeseung replied.

"However, there is another reason why I wanted to give you a tour around the castle. This question comes very suddenly and I understand and respect it if you want to wait longer. But, I would like to ask if you wanna move in?" He added.

I don't know what I expected Prince Heeseung to ask, but it was not that. All I can hear in my head is Jay telling me to answer yes.

That's the reason why Jay wanted Prince Heeseung to be obsessed with me: to protect me. Even if I think we are going too fast, I have to play along. Otherwise, his heart might grow thinner.

"Yes, I would love to live here with you," I answered with a smile.

Prince Heeseung smiled back. Despite the smile on his face, it feels painful watching it. They say love makes you blind, and in this case, it's true, but with a different meaning.

Prince Heeseung is not aware of his true feelings because his love for me is covering it. He thinks it's all rainbows and sunshine with me, but it's doom and gloom.

As Jay once said to me, "You are lucky for now." I'm afraid it might be the same for Prince Heeseung; he is lucky for now.

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Despite already being given a tour once, I ended up receiving a second one. I don't mind, I need one, especially since I'm moving here.

The date is not set yet. We still have to announce it to our parents and also get permission from the king and queen. Prince Heeseung says it's nothing to worry about. They like me and won't see any harm in me moving in.

But my biggest concern is not whether we get permission or not. It's me living without my mother. She is not far away, it's not like I'm moving to a new town hours away. But she will not close at hand when I need her.

"And, this will be your bedroom," Prince Heeseung said as he opened the door.

It's the same room I was assigned the first time here. During the first tour around the castle, Prince Heeseung skipped it since I had already been there. Now, it makes sense why. The gown is still lying on the bed as if it hasn't been touched since I wore it.

"It's officially your dress now. If you like it, of course," Prince Heeseung said.

"I love it, thank you," I replied with a wide smile.

He moved closer, too close. It's not making me feel uncomfortable, I do like having Prince Heeseung close. But it's making me scared of what is going to happen next.

"Should I hang this gown somewhere? It might get wrinkles if we-" I said while I walked away.

"That's not important right now," Prince Heeseung replied and placed his index finger under my chin.

"Oh, okay. I see," I responded with a nervous chuckle.

My head is working full-time and at full speed right now. I'm trying to think of all the solutions on how to naturally escape this situation without making it weird.

It knocked on the door. Prince Heeseung removed his finger from my chin while I sighed in relief.

"I'm sorry to interrupt you, Your Royal Highness. Your fencing practice starts soon," A courtier announced.

"I understand, thank you," Prince Heeseung replied rapidly. He sounds stressed. Probably because he is mad we got interrupted.

"I assume I have to get used to this," I said.

"Unfortunately," Prince Heeseung replied.

He moved closer to me again. This time, I couldn't walk unless I wanted to make the situation awkward. I have to keep Prince Heeseung too close to protect myself physically, yet I still have to keep my distance to protect myself mentally.

Prince Heeseung placed his hand on my jaw and kissed my forehead. The kiss made my heart melt, and his heart might have lost a piece of glass. I assume all he can feel is his heart beating extra fast and hard. At least, his heart is still beating. That's what matters.