ENDLESSLY YOURS | Jay Park

018 | royal lifestyle

Ryu Yeseul
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I am slowly adjusting to the royal lifestyle. My routine that I have had for years is changing and there is not much to do about it. I try to keep old habits or parts of my daily routine alive because I want to remember who I am and where I come from. But, I am not allowed to do it my way.

I am not allowed to make my breakfast or any food, wash the dishes, or my clothes, or clean my bedroom. That's why the royal family have servants, to skip these tasks and chorus. It's not like I can give the sack to them because they need their job.

I guess I'm scared to lose my humbleness and the person I used to be. I do know the risk of that happening is low because no one in the royal family has lost their humbleness. But at the same time, just because it hasn't happened to them doesn't it will not happen to me.

"Are you sure you are gonna be okay? You can still come along if you want to," Prince Heeseung asked.

"I'm gonna be fine. I still need to adjust to everything and I'm not ready yet to be the population's Princess Yeseul if you understand what I mean. I will also visit Mother later so I won't be completely alone," I answered.

"I understand what you mean," Prince Heeseung smiled.

He kissed me on the cheek and then went into the carriage along with the king and queen. I waved them goodbye until the carriage disappeared out of my sight. They are visiting another royal family in another town. Prince Heeseung asked me to come along but since I'm not ready to make a public appearance as Princess Yeseul yet, so, I decided to stay here.

I can tell Prince Heeseung is doing everything he can for me. He always makes sure he has time for me no matter if it's only a few minutes or half a day. It is a relief knowing he will never force me into things I am not uncomfortable with.

However, I have been questioning lately if Prince Heeseung is questioning me. If he wonders why I don't seek physical contact often or kiss him. We have already kissed once so it makes sense why Prince Heeseung would question me. He properly does but dont want to admit it. I wish he was honest with me about it, but at the same time, I'm keeping secrets from him so it's fair that he keeps secrets from me.

I decided to walk back to my bedroom to change my clothes. When I opened the door, I spotted Jay looking in my drawers. He noticed me and immediately pushed back the drawer and pretended nothing happened. It reminds me of that morning at Jay's house when I saw a sketch of myself. Or, a sketch that looked like me.

"Why are you here again and why are you looking in my drawers?" I asked as I walked up to him.

"First of all, Im here because I want to. Second of all, you should ask that as someone who has also sneaked around my house," Jay answered with a proud smile at the end.

"Fine, but I still dont understand why you are here. I won't accept your excuse of me being your biggest priority again because it feels like you are here for another reason," I replied.

"And you are right. I am here for another reason this time. You see, I'm here to help you with Prince Heeseung," Jay said as he sat down on my bed.

"You are here to help me with Prince Heeseung?" I repeated and sat down next to him.

"Are you in love with him?" Jay suddenly asked.

The sudden question caught me off guard. It's not the first time Jay asks me if I'm in love with Prince Heeseung. However, this question feels a lot more serious than the first one.

"Are you jealous or what?" I joke to make the air less tense.

"I just wanted to make sure in case your heart breaks," Jay responded.

"What do you mean?" I asked him out of confusion.

"I have brewed a position for you called confractus. If you drink it and then kiss Prince Heeseung within ten minutes, his curse will break and reveal his true feelings for you," Jay explained.

"And why would you give me that? I thought you wanted Prince Heeseung to be madly in love with me so the royal family could protect me?" I questioned.

"I do want you protected and I thought the royal family would be great for that. Which they are, they have the highest security level. However, I get a feeling you are unhappy with them. You like Prince Heeseung but, do you like being Princess Yeseul?" Jay replied.

I don't. I honestly don't like being Princess Yeseul. The king and queen and Prince Heeseung are the sweetest people I have ever met who deserve the whole world. All I want is to give back what they give me. I try my hardest to do so, but everything I do feels wrong and nothing like me.

"How did you know?" I asked out of curiosity.

"It's obvious. You looked happier when you lived with your mother than what you do right now," Jay answered.

I looked into his eyes and felt my heart beat faster. His eyes usually look dark and evil, but right now they look soft and sincere. I want to believe Jay's words because he is right, but I don't want to believe because he is Jay.

"What will happen if Prince Heeseung's curse breaks? He won't die in a heartbreak, right?" I questioned.

"If his curse breaks, his true feelings will be revealed to him. There are two options to where things can lead. Option one, he still loves you and nothing changes. Option two, his love disappears completely and starts hating you instead. In conclusion, no matter what option he chooses, he will not die in heartbreak," Jay explained.

"But most importantly, this is not about Prince Heeseung, this is about you," He added.

My heart continued to beat faster and Jay holding my hand didn't make it slower. With all my fears of Prince Heeseung dying in heartbreak because of me, maybe I should break his curse for the both of us. I dont want to live in a lie and I'm sure Prince Heeseung doesn't want it either.

This might be the only chance to save both of us without anyone getting hurt.