Hurting Kind//Del Water Gap

Chapter 17

Ivy

I fell asleep that night in the hotel bed with Holden holding me. I've never felt more at ease with myself then in that moment. It's been a few weeks since that night. Niall and Nat are still seeing each other. I don't know if they are official or not. I never ended up getting lunch with her. I see Holden all the time and we are always hanging out. We haven't been on an official date yet since the picnic. Niall's tour is going well. Niall fans are starting to fall in love with Del Water Gap and each show gets better and better. I'm doing very well with my job. I've fallen in love with the touring life. It's been an amazing experience and the relationships I've built make it so much better. My feelings for Holden are growing by the minute. I'm not sure how he feels about me. We haven't kissed since that night. We agreed that we can't do anything around other people or in the venue at all. We never see each other at the hotel. Our rooms are usually on different floors and one of us is busy. 

We are currently in Madrid, Spain. We have a few weeks before our first extended break. Niall's energy never weakens. He preforms each and every show at his best. 

"Psst. Ivy." I heard from behind me. I tuned and saw Holden sticking his head out of a closet. I walked to him and he grabbed me and pulled me into the closet. 

"Holden what are you doing?" I asked him.

"Can I please just have a moment with you. Alone?" I asked resting his head on my shoulder hugging me. "I missed you and I can't say it if someone is around us all the time."

"Holden I've missed you. I've been busy and I'm sorry." I ran my fingers through his hair.

"It's okay. I just want to see you more." He raised his head to me.

"I'll make more time for us. We have that month break coming up soon." I said

"I know but that's still in a few weeks. I might die." He dramatically sighed

"Stop being dramatic." I said grabbing his face. I wanted to kiss him again. I've been dying to do it ever since the first time. I raised my lips and kissed his cheek.

"You're killing me." He said putting his hands on my cheeks and pressing his lips to mine. My heart was racing. I grabbed his arms and pulled him to me, deepening the kiss. He groaned.

I broke away and looked at him smiling. "I have to go. Come to my room tonight and let's hang out." I felt like a teenager sneaking around

"Okay." He said grabbing my face and kissing me again. I laughed and exited the closet. I was walking down the hallway when I heard the door open. Holden stepped out of the closet and walked across the hall to his dressing room. He waved at me before shutting the door. Niall was on stage at the moment and Nat was watching him out front. I wish I could watch Holden preform and not from the side. I'll have to ask Nat one day if I can get off work. I sat down in Niall's dressing room. I was exhausted and I had a killer headache. I really needed a break. Niall came in a hour later. I was asleep by that time. I felt horrible. 

"Ivy are you alright?" Niall asked walking up and sitting beside me.

"Yeah I'm fine. I'm just tired." I replied. 

"Hey let's go back to the hotel. We leave in the morning." He rubbed his hand on my back. I got up and walked to the car and we went to the hotel. Once we got there, I texted Holden saying I was going straight to bed an I'll see him in the morning. I didn't wait for a reply and went right to sleep. I woke up the next morning with the same headache. It felt like I've been hit by a bus. I pushed trough it and went and did what I needed to. I packed my suitcase and dragged it to the bus outside. I got on the bus with Niall and walked straight to my bunk. I crawled in it and fell asleep.

"Ivy wake up." I rolled over and saw Niall trying to wake me. 

"Hey. What time is it?" I asked

"It's time for lunch. Are you okay? You haven't slept like this in awhile." He looked worried.

"I'm fine. I have a headache. It's all." I said getting out of bed. I walked to the back where Holden and Niall were. I sat beside Holden and tucked my legs up and hugged them. I was so exhausted. I saw Holden and Niall giving each other weird looks. "Guys I'm fine. Stop looking at me like that. Niall can you get medicine and some water?" I asked him

"Yeah of course." He said getting up. I leaned over and cuddled closer to Holden. 

"My head is killing me." I told him. He held me close and kissed my head.

"I wish I could help you." He looked at me sad. 

"You are helping. Let me lay here with you." I said.

"Here Ivy." Niall said returning. 

"Thank you." I sat up to take the pills and drink some water. I grabbed a blanket from the side of the couch and laid down where I was. Niall gave me a weird look. He knows that I was getting close with Holden, but that's about it. Niall got up and disappeared for a while. I was half asleep when he returned. 

"Ivy eat this. It's strawberries." He said with a plate of strawberries. Our grandma used to cut strawberries for us when we didn't feel good. It made me smile.

"Thanks Ni." I used my nickname for him. I never used it anymore. 

"You're welcome Ivy Bug." He smiled at me as I ate some strawberries. Once I finished I put the plate on the table and laid down on Holden. I tired to stay awake, but I was so tired. I slept a lot for the next few days. Niall, Nat, and Holden were getting extremely worried. I got up for the show and went to sound checks. I was feeling okay for a while. I went back to Holden's dressing room where he wasn't back to yet. I laid down on is couch and close my eyes. He walked in after a few minutes.

"How are you feeling? Ivy I'm worried." He said running his hand through my hair gently. It felt nice.

"I'm tired that's all. I think it's because I'm not used to the tour life. It's taking its toll on me." I rolled over to look at him. He look terrified.

"Ivy this isn't normal. I want you to stay here tonight for my show. Don't come out. I'll tell Nat." He insisted

"No, Holden I'm fine. I swear." I assured him. "Just sit here with me."

"Okay. I still don't want you to leave this room." He said sitting beside me. He eventually left to go to stage. I also went to my booth and sat beside Nat. I was tired, but I could still do my job.

"Ivy. What are you doing here?" She asked me

"I'm fine." I told her

"You are super pale and look like a raccoon with those dark eyes. Go back to the dressing room" She told me

"Nat, I can still do my job." I pressed

"I'll let you sit here and watch. That's it." She told me giving up. I could work with that. I got up and walked to the end of the stage. He was already preforming at this point. He had already sang all but one song. I watched him as he started to play the last one. I started to feel a little dizzy. 

"Nat. I don't feel great." I looked over at her. I could see Holden look over at me with worry on his face. The song was almost over and he was saying his goodbyes. I stumbled and fell to the ground right as he started to walk over to us. I remember him running over to me before I passed out. Everything went black.

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OOOO a little cliffhanger......

Sorry for the huge time jump...I have ideas for later in the tour and I had most of the relationship building running. 

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-Cami <3