Begin Again

8

Minji

I was pacing around the room, waiting for Haerin, and then, there she was. Walking carefully with a smile painted on her face, her eyes were sparkling more than usual and everything about her just looks perfect.

Wait- what? Why am I thinking like this?? Snap out of it Minji! I can't do this.

"Hi." Haerin walked up to me and waved while her head tilted. She's adorable. Ugh! "Hi, you look gorgeous." Oh fuck why did I say that?!?! Because it's true?

"O-oh? Thank you, you look amazing too." She giggled and I swear I saw butterflies and flowers around her. I smiled to the ground due to my shyness.

We sat next to each other while waiting for our turn, we didn't talk much after that, so it was kind of awkward. Out of nowhere, I took my phone out and took a picture at a lower angle so that it could capture her.

She chortled with confusion as I looked at the photo. Looks cute. God, I really should stop this, it's making me guilty and for sure, Hanni is gonna be hurt.

I didn't realize that my mood and expression changed when Haerin tapped my shoulder and asked "Everything okay? You were smiling a while ago, why frown now?"

"I'm just nervous, that's all." I lied. "Don't worryyy, you got this! We got this!" I'm glad that she's trying to help, but it's also not helping at all. Everything she did just made me nervous around her, and this is not good for me and Hanni.

I tried to not talk and think about her, I was doing well for a while but only because I was asleep. Now that I'm awake, I can see her pretty face again.

"You're on for 5 minutes! Let's go to the backstage!" One of the staffs told us and led us backstage. I looked over to Haerin who gave me a cheering smile, she put her hands in the air with her fists clenched to cheer us both.

"Don't worry, even if you do something wrong, which I know you won't, I know that they'll still cheer for you. You're an irresistable human being, they all love you." She gently punched my shoulders and let out a giggle that makes the flowers and butterflies appear around her again.

I smiled gently and took a deep breath before she patted my back and raised her eyebrows playfully. Minutes later, it was our turn to walk on the runway. We took one last glance to each other and nodded with a smile.

She was the first to walk, and her confidence also boosted mine. Her hair flips were flawless, the sound that her heels made were so addicting, and her cat eyes, oh how I love those feline eyes.

She looked so fucking cool, no wonder why everyone had cheered for her.

After she was done, I also made my way and thought of myself as the most beautiful human alive to boost my confidence. To my surprise, everyone had also cheered me. Yeah, I know I was known, but I didn't expect them to cheer me loudly.

"Now isn't that so hard?" Haerin turned to look at me with a smirk once I was standing beside her. "I felt so cool." We both laughed together as my nervousness fade away.

It was time for us to walk together and do our poses that we practiced, I held her hand so soft and we started walking like a power couple.

Cheesy label, I know.

We were both feeling ourselves as our fellow schoolmates, teachers, and staffs cheered for us. I was nervous again, but all of those disappeared when Haerin rubbed  the back of my hands using her thumb. We did our final pose as everyone took our pictures, after that, we went backstage and rested.

...

Haerin

After the event, we took pictures together before going back to our own place. I enjoyed the night because most of my time were spent with her, but the thought of Hanni who watched us made me feel guilty.

I really don't wanna hurt my bestfriend, should I distance myself?

Sigh, I'll try...

Before going to bed, I checked instagram and saw that Minji posted pictures of us at the event. She barely post anything, even with the amount of followers she has, she posts 2 pictures per month and then delete them or put them on archive after some time.

Not gonna lie, I was feeling like the chosen one when I saw that post.

Lol.

Right, Hanni still exists so nevermind.

As of now, I'm confused about my feelings, when Minji and I don't talk to each other or look at each other, the feelings were non-existent, but whenever we do, it's like I'm falling for her everytime.

Why does God keep bringing me back to you?

Ariana Granade mentioned AHEM.

Anyway-

*DING DING DING*

Now who the fuck sends a message at 2 a.m???

Oh, it's Minji. She just sent a damn reel.

Why is she sending me these all of a sudden? I tilted my head as I checked instagram and found random funny videos of cats.

"Why are you sending me these?" I texted, smiling at amusement. "I found them funny, so why not send them to a cat that I know?" Do I really look like a cat? I don't see that at all. I am not a cat!

"How do I even resemble a cat??? I don't even behave like one!"

"Oh baby, that behavior explains it all."

Baby?!?! EKZKYUZ MEY?!? I did not just see Minji call me a baby. Okay but that was so cute though-

"Ewww stop calling me that!" I replied, obviously I didn't find it ewy, I just said that to deny the fact that I liked it.

"Call you what?"

"Baby."

"Yes, baby?"

OH MY FUCKING LAWD.

That was smooth, I ain't gonna lie. Why you gonna be so smooth with me, Minji Kim?

"Alright, tone down the rizz Kim, or I might tell you on Hanni." I was having fun talking to her, but I remembered Hanni, and I'm feeling guilty again.

I feel like I'm such a bad friend. Am I?