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Chapter- 15 APOLOGIZE

Aagnay 's pov:

The guilt and shame consumed him like a wildfire. He can't escape the memories of her tears, the sound of her shattering heart, the sight of her walking away from him. His fists clenched, he punches the wall, the pain a temporary distraction from the ache within. But it's never enough, the self-inflicted wounds a poor substitute for the forgiveness he craves.He tries to drown his sorrows in whiskey, but the numbness is short-lived, and the pain returns, sharper than before. His reflection stares back at him, a stranger's eyes filled with regret and sorrow. He wonders how he let it come to this, how he let his love turn to hurt, his touch to pain.

"How could i? how come I didn't control myself ... .ahh" the sound of his thundering roar could be heard clearly in the basement.

Till yesterday everything was fine between us, we were talking well, listening to each other calmly, spending our time so festively then what would happen to her between reaching back to palace, what made her so peculiar in just a overnight.

When I saw everyone having so much fun in the haldi ritual, I thought I would apply on haldi to her like everyone else, but before that everyone had drown her in color....it doesn't make bad to me she's enjoying her sister's function obviously....what would I intervene
But I wanted to get applied only by her hands.

Thinking all about this I went towards the kitchen I didn't understand her reaction after looking at me, there was a look in her eyes which screamed fear, anxiety and she was just thinking to flee away I thought of talking to her and settling matters if something bothered her but she didn't agree for even this....

what I did next was enough to loathe my existence... I forced myself on her, my siya...her words are revolving in my mind causing extreme pain, I feel like dying ... .her red face, eyes are driving me crazy.... The eyes of her, In which i can't bear a single drop of tear....today I'm fucking responsible for those....

"main sab ki ankho mein khud ke liye nafrat dekh sakta hu.....siwaye unke."

Aagnay was continuously banging his hands on the wall making it bleed. After torturing himself thoroughly he went upstairs.
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Everyone sitting in the lounge discussing tomorrow's function, sipping their coffee and chatting excitedly about the sangeet function. Pranav spotted him and approached in his direction.

"Where were you for so long?" Prana asks.

"None of your business" he says in a straight tone without looking at him.

"Aagnay...what happened m.....fuck why the hell you did this man?" Pranav panicked while looking at his knuckles which were terribly injure.

"Leave" he gritted his teeth.

Not possible, I'll have band aid you asshole...otherwise you'll make this worse.... Pranav says at the same time while dragging him toward the room.

"Kuch bolne ki kripa karoge kyun kiya?"Pranav asks.

"Was siya there?" Aagnay asks.

"No."

He just hummed and went outside, without answering him.

"Lake area" pranav shouted asa he left.
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(Night time)

Siya was sitting near the lake area,
eyes were red because of crying, and her face was pale, like a delicate porcelain doll that had been left out in the rain. The tears had carved tiny rivers down her cheeks, leaving behind a trail of sorrow and Heartache .